Momma (20th February 2012)
thinking of you - but too tired to tell you all about it! Just wanting you to know that and so much more xxxxx

Momma (14th February 2012)
You know how much I am thinking of you on Valentine's Day and how sad I am for so many reasons that only you know about. Some memories will be vivid forever. You and I had such an understanding with hearts...I cannot ever see one without thinking of you; you loved to draw and write and express your love to all of us so happily. I will probably spend the whole day with you in my mind today. I know I will. Again and again, I want you to know how much I love you. Momma xxxxxx

Anon (12th February 2012)
Such a beautiful day yesterday; incredible light. Always think of you when out walking. S xx

Momma (9th February 2012)
Grace, even now I keep finding art you have done and it really saddens me that I never told you enough times how much I love it and how good you are; I wish I had praised you more. You always tried hard and sometimes it wasn't recognised and it makes me feel terrible now. I know it is a cliche but if only we could have just a little more time together to say all we want to. But I don't suppose I could ever say enough and always want to say more. However many times I say 'I love you', it will never even begin to show how I really feel. There are no words for that. But, however inadequate, again and again I will say I love you Grace. xxxxxx Momma xxxxxx

Momma (7th February 2012)
I love you xxxxx

Anon (31st January 2012)
Dearest Grace, a New Year but steeped in memories of you. So much and so lovingly remembered. You will always, always be with us. S xx

Anon (30th January 2012)
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Momma (30th January 2012)
There are just so so many things I think about. There is still so much to face in the future. There is still plenty of heart ache. We will get through but it is a stumbling way. I feel you so close by sometimes and sometimes I feel compelled to write. I always want to tell you I love you and remember how I called you The Best Girl in the World. Tons of love from Momma xxxxx

Momma (27th January 2012)
The sun is bright, the frost crisp and white; I went to see how frosted and awful all your flowers would be looking today. I was amazed. The sun was shining on the flowers which were covered with frost and there was no damage at all and they looked so beautiful...sparkling there. Even a few of the feathery white tulips I mentioned a while back are still surviving and looking good. How wonderful and uplifting! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Momma (26th January 2012)
Darling Grace ... I feel bowled over this morning. I hardly ever dream of you (that I can remember) but last night I had such a vivid dream; it did not end happily so I feel a bit of a wreck today. I feel I have lost you all over again but, for that brief time, it was wonderful to have you properly with me. I feel refreshed in a strange sort of way. Perhaps I will start to dream of you more often in a happy way. Meanwhile, I picture you in my head so you are with me. I have some beautiful flowers to bring you today. I love you so much. Momma xxxx

Momma (22nd January 2012)
Honestly, I keep on needing your help and advice while I try to arrange my room (your old bedroom) and I know you would get it just right. Everything I do involves you. As it always did really. I would be a lot quicker if you were around! And you would love to help I know....arranging rooms was one of your real talents. Oh well, I had better try and get on now. You are never out of my thoughts. Love you. xxxxx

Alexandra (21st January 2012)
Dearest Grace ... I have in front of me a thank you letter you must have written when you were 12 or so (after or before a swimming gala, I think). It's so polite, thoughtful, funny and loving. I'm so pleased to have come across it and that I still have it. Much love from all of us ... xXx

Momma (19th January 2012)
Grace, I am always thinking of you; you are always with me. Loads of love Momma xxxx

Grace (14th January 2012)
I'd give anything for a hug right now. Miss you so much x x x x x

xxx (13th January 2011)
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Grace (12th January 2012)
hey chick..I'm wondering when the day will be when I can actually say what I mean on here - it almost makes me laugh at how I still delete my words sooo many times! I guess I just want you to know that I'm always missing you and wishing you could be here, particularly after the holidays when everyone regroups. Happy new year, and to your lovely family as well...love you lots x x x

X (12th January 2012)
I miss you. thats all. x

Anon (12th January 2012)
I think about you so often, Grace. You are such a beautiful girl in every way and it's so nice to remember you so often. I hope you're having fun and that these things all happen for some sort of reason, whatever it may be. You're just great. X

Momma (7th January 2012)
Yesterday, being the twelfth day of Christmas, I wanted to make sure I took away the Christmas star we put on your cross and also the tiny little Christmas tree that Robert decorated and gave you (I want to try to keep it in a pot so we can bring it to you next year too). When I got there I found some beautiful beautiful white feathery tulips which someone had left very recently. It amazes me how very much it lifts me to know that people remember you and can still make the effort to come and visit you and bring flowers. I thought perhaps no one would this year and now I feel so very much more cheered because of that generous gesture; I would love to know who left them but, even without knowing, I feel the warmth and love that people have for you. I hate it that time is going by and you cannot be part of all that is happening. For myself, and it is probably the same for most of us, I have to face each day as it comes and try not to think too much about time but, rather, make sure I keep you close. There will always be too many heart aches but I trust that perhaps it all becomes more bearable as time goes on. Loads of love.........xxxxxx

Anon (6th January 2012)
Reading these messages brings back so many clear memories I didn't even know I had. Someone said the song 'Halo' reminded them of you and I'm sure they had a special memory of you with that song. I don't but I heard it for the first time the day I heard the awful news and it always makes me think of you. At the time I felt like it was written about you. All my love to your wonderful family espcially your mum, she was always lovely to me, and you were so close. I remember you both painstakingly pinning up your wall-hangings every term. I still think about you loads. x

Momma (2nd January 2012)
Another new year has started and I think of you as much as ever. But I am glad about that. My life includes you just as it might if you were here. I love you. Need you. Miss you. Think of you. Always will. xxxxx

Vicky (30th December 2011)
hello gracie. I haven't been on this website in too long. I wish my life wasn't so full of busy work. I heard halo on the radio today and was just completely overwhelmed suddenly with how much I miss you. I just cried. I haven't cried about you in so long. I hope you know I will never forget you and I will always miss you. Nothing i love more is seeing all the teddies lot in the holidays and everytime we see each other i think about you and wish so much you were there to join in with all our laughing. I can't believe another year is coming without you in. all my love to your family. i just wish i saw them more. love you X X X

M (28th December 2011)
It is wonderful to read messages from your friends. I cannot put into words the warmth I feel when I know your friends love and miss you. We all want you to be with us. It feels so cruel that we are deprived of you and that you are unable to experience all the fun and plans that were your future. But, perhaps, there is a reason..........I love you, so many of us do. Nothing changes. xxxxxxxxxx

Momma (27th December 20110
Oh, another Christmas day is over and I promise you, even though I didn't write, I thought of you all day and all night....we had our usual over indulgent time and you would have adored it. We laughed so much when we saw Emma's plate with the tiny amount, just as it was in Christmas 2008 when you took about three times as much and you just could not believe the difference between the helpings...I love it that you enjoyed everything to the full and most especially food! We have been to see you more than usual perhaps and Poppa rigged up a huge star in the dark on your cross, with our help, after the Midnight Mass service. Then Robert decorated a miniature Christmas tree (a real one!) and took it up to you. It looks so sweet. And you have a lovely wreath. I want to be with you so badly and love to take you flowers as it makes me feel I am doing something you would like. It still seems so little time...whenever I make trips to t he station and back, I always remember they were usually for you and with you. I even sometimes expect you to be in the back of the car. I remember how warm you were, with your soft hair and skin. It is very hard to be without you. Soon it will be a new year and I will try to look forward and make it a good year. I always wish people 'Merry Christmas' now because you really were insistant I should not say 'Happy Christmas'! Each time I greet people, you are with me as I think of you and remember. We had a happy time this year, with all the boys plus Becks, Felix and Dorothy, and Emma, but not for a moment were you out of our minds. Your room looks beautiful, decorated by Jasper. So pretty, you would approve. Much much love.....I will SO miss your midnight call as the clock strikes......xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Anon (27th December 2011)
You are a beautiful girl, Grace. Years on I still think of you so often. I hope you have had a superb Christmas up there and are enjoying the good life. So much love x

Anon (27th December 2011)
You are a beautiful girl, Grace. Years on I still think of you so often. I hope you have had a superb Christmas up there and are enjoying the good life. So much love x

Ali (27th December 2011)
Happy Christmas!! Thinking of you and your family more than ever. Miss you Xxxx

Sophie (26th December 2011)
I thought about you so much on Christmas. Love you loads xxx

Anon (26th December 2011)
sleep well! Little princess XXX

Olivia (25th December 2011)
Merry Christmas beautiful Grace. With tons of love to you and your family, as always, but especially today XXX

Anon (24th December 2011)
Thinking of you more than ever. How fonldly we all remember especially at this time of year. Much love, S xx

Susan (23rd December 2011)
I have had the most amazing four months in Avenue House! You were so right in thinking I would love being a Matron at Teddies!! Every day I pass your garden & it always looks wonderful despite the weather. I think it has it's own little micro climate. Rev Kerr persuaded me to read a lesson at the Field Side Chapel Service on the last Friday, how amazing! Missing you so much Grace, lots of love xxx Susan

Momma (22nd December 20110
We had our party for all the family and the house is looking lovely for once. F Tidy and full of decorations and flowers. I think it is exactly how you would love it to be. I can just hear you commenting, the way you always did. Everyone admired it and we all missed you so so much. I missed you helping with the short eats too! The boys missed you helping with the tree. You are definitely here in all we are doing; there were times when people went very quiet and we were all just thinking about you - and we had a toast to you, of course, so you can see you are never ever forgotten. Always here. I know I think of you constantly and in almost everything I am doing. But I need to be able to hug you. So badly. Love you forever. M xxxx PS Jasper read so well in the Carol Service; I could only think about how you always did it so beautifully...always clearly so we could all hear (unlike some of the other readers!). It is unbelievable that you are not here to do it now. xx

Anon (18th December 2011)
Really feeling down at the moment and when I am sad it immediately takes me back to just how tragic a time your loss was in all our lives. Relating such sadness does have it's benefits as it puts things into perspective. However tough things are for me right now I am sure I will get through them as we have all over come larger pains in the past. I miss you grace as a smile from you right now really would go down a treat. Christmas should be a happy time and I wish you were here to make it so. Lots of Love XXX

Chloe (16th December 2011)
wishing so much I could see you at the moment Grace xxxxxxxxxxx I like how there are some songs which make me think of you instantly , feels like you're reminding me from time to time that you're still around ! really miss you xxxxx

X (15th December 2011)
Hey Grace, Haven't written in a while but thinking of you of course because it's nearly Christmas and wishing you were here. I was looking for presents for my family on Amazon today and I came across a book full of inspirational quotes. On each page it said GMH and I couldn't understand why. Eventually I realised that it was meant to stand for Give Me Hope. I know it can't be a coincedence that you share the initials. You give hope to us all and I hope you know that. Love you forever x

Momma (13th December 2011)
If it snows it will make me so sad thinking about you in the snow. One day I will feel happy about it. Missing you non stop. It still seems so hard to believe that you have gone, with all your fun, sense of humour, generosity, love, thoughtfulness, consideration and everything else that makes you the best girl we could ever have in the family. xxx

Momma (7th December 2011)
Grace, I'm missing you more and more and more and more. At least I have my laptop working again at last. I am trying to tidy and sort the house and all the time I find your things; so much to remind me and to make me feel sad that you are just not here to see the things you and I put away to look at later. Sometimes it feels to be too much to bear. I am really sad I haven't managed to get your post cards onto the website yet, or the photos and small bit I wrote to thank everyone who contributed so generously at the Mad Hatter's Tea Party. Maybe January will be a better month. I love you, precious girl. xxxx

Anon (4th December 2011)
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Anon (3rd December 2011)
So many beautiful thoughts and memories of you; much missed and always in our hearts and minds. S xx

Momma (1st December 2011)
It is December already! You would be getting so excited. I wish you were really here. There are so many of the every day mundane things that make me realise how dreadfully much I miss you the whole time. I can't think how to tell you. I just know I love you so much and the shock of losing you is just as acute as ever. I miss all the fun and laughs and you loving clothes and wanting to look your best all the time. It was always such a pleasure to know you loved all types of food. You always did even when you were small....I still have no laptop so can't write much. just that I love you......... xxxxxx

Momma (27th November 2011)
It is bad having no laptop. I think of you all the time and want to write.......last time that I took lilies up to you, I kept a couple for the kitchen which were not out and I thought they never would manage to come out but today they are completely open and smell glorious. It makes me know you are everywhere in the house in my mind. You always will be wherever I go. xxxxxxxxx

Anon (23rd November 2011)
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Immy (22nd November 2011)
Grace I haven't written on here in such a long time, which is very bad of me, but I do still go on to your facebook and leave messages and look through old photos of you. A beautiful one popped up the other day of us before Alex's 18th getting ready, I remember how much fun we had back then. Things been a bit tough recently could really do with you to cheer me up, I know you are always there which to be honest keeps me going. We all miss you everyday here, and you are never forgotten, always in my mind. Will come and pay a visit when I am back down south. Miss you always. xxxxxxxxxx

M (17th November 2011)
I just have to write...so much I want to say. I have just found so many old photos - you are in them all; a cheeky happy little girl. Such amazingly happy times in India; Christmas and New year were always the best, best, best, it is really devastating to see you so happy there with Gowri, Gershon, Shanka, Chalapatti and all and knowing you haven't even seen the photos since you were more grown up, let alone revisiting Bangalore and all those who loved you there. It is almost too much to bear together with all the other memories that still feel painful; one day the memories will only be happy perhaps. I am always happy when I think of you as a person but then it is overwhelmingly sad when I realise you are gone. I still can't believe it. My precious girl. If only you could come back. xxxx

Bella (12th November 2011)
So much love Xxx thinking of all of you and thought of you this evening Grace while its 2.06 and i wish i wasn't having to stay up writing an essay! Just thinking you are in a much better place than this, but even still it is so hard to think you are not here Xxx I hope you are all well (hadman family)

Momma (10th November 2011)
Now I have been given some eau de toilette which is called 'Eternal Grace'. Not only do I love the smell (you would too) but I also love the words and the whole philosophy which is so apt for you: "eternal grace - philosophy: a graceful heart is forever young. its beat timeless. its joy effortless. its capacity for love limitless. it transcends the boundaries of age, enticing others to tiptoe closer and delight in its rhythm. open to new connections, a graceful heart invites others in to share dreams and celebrate innocence. youth is eternal. believe in youth." xxxxxx

Momma (9th November 2011)
Someone sent me the following quote today and I just can't stop thinking of you Grace. xxx "What we do for ourselves dies with us. What we do for others and the world remains and is immortal." Albert Pine

Momma (8th November 2011)
I'm back home again and thinking of you as usual. I will take some lovely flowers to you tomorrow if I can; the rain is going to stop I think. It is such a tribute to you that so many people think of you, and miss you, so much and so often. I wish you were here to tell you how endlessly proud I am of you my precious girl. xxxxx

Ely (7th November 2011)
I really need a chat Mousie, its funny how even after all this time I am still sure that you would give me the right advice. Somethings never change, and the way everyone loves you and misses you is one thing that will always be the same. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Grace (4th November 2011)
I just wanted to remind you that you'll always be loved and remembered..sometimes I feel like I haven't written frequently enough to say these sorts of things to you, so just want to make sure you don't forget. There are so many things that won't let me forget you. Miss and love you so much x x x

Anon (4th November 2011)
How simple the last message is and how true.

Anon (3rd November 2011)
Loss leaves a heart-ache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal.

Momma (3rd November 2011)
Missing you more than ever tonight. I have just had dinner at Penny's and Erica and Vicky were there just bursting with life and their experiences at work in Boston. And Graham is over 6' now. They are such a happy family and their house is absolutely beautiful and completely organised. You would love everything and everyone. I love you so much xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Sophie (30th October 2011)
Amazing Grace, the amount of people who knew you and who speak so fondly of you just reminds me of how special you are and although you are so so missed, i still believe you are happy and in a wonderful place. Of course you still live in our thoughts and will never leave the hearts of everyone who loves you. X

Momma (29th October 2011)
Darling Grace..I feel so bad that I haven't been able to write sooner; somehow it makes me feel you are abandoned if you haven't had a message for so long. I never ever stop thinking of you. First we went to Barnsdale (I slept in your room the first two nights and remembered how you arranged it and how much you loved being independent there); we managed but it just wasn't the same without you. We did have nine peope there so it was very busy, plus Felix and Dorothy. How you would love to be with Felix and Dorothy. They are both gorgeous as I am sure you know. I gave each of them one of your beanie babies from you (the octupus for Dorothy and the seahorse for Felix -they are the same really pretty colours and so soft). Now I am in America with Ann. When I am back, I hope things will improve in the house the way you always wanted them to. I miss you so much. Early this morning I dreamt about you when you were little in India; then I started to be half awake and remember so vividly the few days before the accident and how little time we had together. All the good times were to come. It was going to be the best time for all of us at home. The best family Christmas in the new house; just lots of good time together after you had finally done your exams and left school. I am just so grateful you were happily looking forward to so much. Lovely, lovely Grace......I will write again soon. Momma xxxx

Anon (2th October 2011)
Dearest Grace, our Indian summer is over and it's now very autumnal. The house is full of spiders (how they used to make you shriek) and also lilies ( how we all love them and how they will always be you). We all love you so dearly. S xx

Fran (16th October 2011)
i just want to spend time with you again. i love you X

M (12th Octiber 2011)
I don't want to go to Barnsdale without you Grace. I will miss you so much. I couldn't go for the last two years. We were always so happy there; I don't think I will be able to swim or play miniature golf; anything to do with swimming reminds me of how brilliant you were and how much you loved it. We've swum so many times at Barnsdale. And miniature golf..we both know how much fun we had. Maybe you will help me. You would so love to be there. I will sleep in your room the first night. I will remember how you arranged it. I love you Grace. Thank you for being so special. xxxx

Momma (9th October 2011)
I have just been to Cheltenham. As I saw all the shops you love and all the fashions you haven't seen, I missed you terribly. There was an outdoor market selling masses of lovely things and lots of delicious food from different countries. I thought of you so so much...we all know how much you love food! Thank goodness because it has always been so much fun that you do. Loads of love for now....xxxxx

Anon (8th October 2011)
Rest well perfect Grace XXXXX

Anon (8th October 2011)
I've spent a long time thinking about this message but not knowing quite what to write. I never had the privilege of meeting you Grace, but some of my close friends were some of your close friends and the impact you had and continue to have on everyone is quite amazing. Whenever I feel down about something silly I think of you and I realise that none of these things are ever worth being that sad about. Your bubbly personality, kindness and determination to live every single second of your life to the fullest is truly inspiring I never knew you but seeing the lovely messages people have written and the beautiful photos makes me feel like I do. I hope that everyone who was lucky enough to have you physically in their lives can take some small comfort from the fact that you continue to touch and help people, even those who you had never met. That is something that only a special few can achieve. Keep up the good work Grace xxx

Momma (6th October 2011)
lots of hugs and kisses for you xxxx xxxx xxxx

Momma (2nd October 2011)
I'll be going to check the flowers today - they have lasted so amazingly well and look lovely. A beautiful reminder of your party. It makes me feel you are really part of the whole thing and several people have remarked that they felt you were there with us. I am just so so glad. It was all really pretty, I think you would have loved the colours and cupcakes and music and everything. And, over the road, your tree with the pink wooden hearts and lots of packets of haribos done up with ribbons and bows all hanging there to make you laugh. Even your little garden underneath looked a picture. Those wonderful Out of the Blue Boys have said they want people to be able to hear the recording they did for you and the party so it will be available (when I can get it organised) on the website or somewhere somehow before too long. When they sang Amazing Grace it was unbelievably moving and we could all only think of you. much much love darling girl. Momma xxxx

Alexandra (27th September 2011)
Dearest Grace your party was so magical. As soon as we stepped onto the grass we were led by the mesmerising notes of the hudy-gurdy to a beautiful place where your artwork took on its own life. It was lovely to see the Queen of Hearts and Mad Hatter as well as the White Rabbit and gorgeous little bunny. The little touches of detail were delightful from the Drink-Me bubbly, mouthwatering cakes and clockwork biscuits to the caterpillar cupcakes and lush ice cream. And all enveloped in chintzy bunting as bright and as colourful as your sketches ... and sparking off wonderful memories and fun moments with you. The music too, was so special and upbeat with much fun from Out of the Blue ... it was almost as if you were there and yet we all miss you so. xXx

Momma (25th September 2011)
Thinking about you. Thinking about your party. All the flowers are still beautiful and are special for you. Everyone misses you so much. Becks and Robert have the most beautiful little baby girl. I know I will give her a beany baby or two from you! You would like that. All your things are so precious. It will be hard to part with anything but I will feel they are from you and that is how it should be. I love you. xxxxxxx

Grace (22nd September 2011)
hey G..I'm back at Uni for pre-season hockey (do you remember that time you rocked up to pre-season hockey in your clothes from a party the night before so hungoverr? never fails to make me smile)..anyway. so that means our socials are back in swing. we go down to this same pub and its guaranteed that before we head onto the club everyone starts dancing on the table to this playlist. One of the songs on it though is "drops of jupiter" by train. No matter what state I'm in it stops me in my tracks every single time it comes on and I find it so hard not to just walk out and go home. One minute I'm having so much fun with friends, and all it takes is this song to make me so heartbroken that you won't experience the same. I just draw comfort from the fact that you lived every day to the full..everyone misses you so much, you genuinely wouldn't believe it. I better go for now. Love you always X x x ps. your party the other day was amazinggg..you'd have loved it ! pps. congrats on becoming an auntie again!! another member to the incredible Hadman family..

Momma (21st September 2011)
Oh Grace, I forgot to say that one of the best successes of the party was selling the set of seven post cards which we copied from your Alice in Wonderland sketch book. People just love them and they look amazing. This has been a giant contribution to the charities and I so hope it will continue to be...I want to put them on the website and people might order more. WELL DONE...all your beautiful work! It makes me so sad to see your art and see how much care you took and the wonderful ideas you had. So many are still in your head and we will never know them and I really really mind that. It has been fun taking photos of all the things that went towards making the party one that you would have really loved. Now I am going and visit you and see the beautiful party flowers. xxxxxxxxxxxx

Momma (19th September 2011)
Darling Grace - I just have to write before I go to bed...not much as I am tired after sorting out today. I think the party was good...it was so lovely to see those friends who came and I think they enjoyed it. I tried to think of all the things you would love and the colours you would love - it looked pretty with the bunting, the table clothes, the lovely Cath Kidston napkins, and all that most amazing food. The cupcakes were the best you could ever find and very tasty...the special Alice in Wonderland decorations were so skillfully made and looked beautiful. Your lovely friends made delicious cakes and helped to get the party ready. We would never have been able to have the party without them I know for certain! We had cherry spitting and a group who sang your favourite Andrews Sisters songs and songs from The Singing Detective. All our favourites. And we had your ipod on the speakers. And we had G&D's icecream and they made a special flavour (creme brulee) in honour of you, the Queen of Creme Brulee...it was scrumptious. I think the highlight was the special recording the Out of the Blue boys made especially for you and your party when they were up at the Edinburgh Fringe. Ollie, one of the group, came to the party. They sang three songs, one was Amazing Grace and everyone absolutely loved it and clapped after each song. Everyone misses you. You would have had a ball. I love you tons and tons. I have taken all the beautiful flowers from the party up to you in the churchyard and they look gorgeous and they are all for you. Thinking of you and wondering why you aren't here with us. I love you so much my precious girl. This may not make much sense as I am very tired. Nothing makes much sense to me anyway nowadays...... endless love from Momma xxxx

Lara (18th September 2011)
I know how excited you would be for your party today, nervous im guessing also. cant wait to spend some time completely dedicated to you... it will be amazing... love you x x x x x

Fran (16th September 2011)
Got a funny drunken text from a friend recently saying 'you mean the world too me'. reminded me of the time i went round telling everyone that about you and we had a conversation about it the day after in my room. At the time was probably the most embarrassed i've ever been. now its a treasured memory. My god i miss you. X

Ely (13th September 2011)
I havnt been on here for a while Mousie so thought id say a little hello! we had Bestival this weekend which I know you were obviously partying at too and looking after us all, its your party in less than a week- i hope its sunny for everyone and I m really looking forward to catching up with your amazing family. Still miss you so often xxx

Momma (9th September 2011)
Grace, the party is soon. You would love everything that is happening. It's lovely to see so many of your friends saying they want to attend...I really hope they do because I just feel it is going to be happy and fun. Also it seems Jasper, William and Robert will have their friends coming too. Lots and lots of good people all getting together for you! I do so hope the weather will be kind to us! Thinking of you now. much much love xxxx

Anon (6th September 2011)
Grace, thinking so often of you over Summer. Today the winds and rain seem to have blown Summer away but your lily is still blooming beautifully. Much love always, S xx

Momma (1st September 2011)
Thinking of you so much; I would love to write lots and lots....I expect you know what I want to say and how I feel. I love you. SO much. Today it seemed completely unreal that you are not here. I kept thinking I must be dreaming. I often feel that way. Now I am too tired to write (have been trying to organise the party!)xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Momma (30th August 2011)
The closer it gets to the party, the more I want you to be here. It is a stark realisation to know you never had the chance to help with a party like this. Or to give one. But you will be with me, and everyone who wants you to be with them, on the 18th (and long before and long after). xxxxxxxxx missing you too much. xxxx

Anon (25th August 2011)
Still miss you as ever little miss beautiful Grace! You have the most wonderful mother and it can be heart breaking reading her messages, but you will never be forgotten and remembered as you were!

Momma (24th August 2011)
Grace, I am missing you so much. There are many things you would be helping me with for your party. I keep thinking of how we would be doing different things together - I have thought of plenty you would really enjoy. Somehow it just doesn't seem fair not to have you here. All the same, we will be determined to have fun and it will be for you. All of it is for you. We know how much you would be laughing and enjoying the whole thing. You really have left a legacy of fun.....we are so lucky. I just can't stop being grateful that you are YOU.. so unique, as we all are, but also very very special. Loving you always....Momma xxxxx

Momma (20th August 2011)
Grace, please give Charlotte an extra special hug today.......xxxx love you xxxxx

Anon (19th August 2011)
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Momma (17th August 2011)
Grace, you must be helping me...things are moving on so well for the party. I hope it will be really good fun for everyone. I am thinking of you all the time and that helps. Trying to imagine what you would like. There is a song, it is new to me, called Fireworks which the Out of the Blue might sing for you....and the words are just so perfect. It will be really exciting. And there will be more, much more..........just keep it sunny! tons of love xxxxxxxx

Anon (15th August 2011)
so grace its been a while since i wrote here, last time was 3rd of october nearly a year now... and i have finished shells and am about to go into fourth form, i am dreading GCSE work and how it all gets serious from here on.... i miss the careless day where you had nothing to worry about just happy and content with yourself, that must be where you are now with lost love ones and with everyone else in spirit. i guess i was just kinda checking in see how everything was and reading your mums messages and feeling sad but knowing that whatever u could have done down here u can definitely do up there. hope all is well Grace and strength and love to your mother xx

Momma (12th August 2011)
Darling Grace....missing you hugely because I am really getting excited about your party. All the arrangements are snowballing and collecting lots of good things as they roll on. I think it should be lots and lots and lots of fun if we are lucky. And if plenty of your friends come. The worst thing about the party will be not seeing you but we will know you are there. For sure you must be. I really have such positive vibes that I can't help but wonder if you are helping me to get everything and give me ideas. Thank you, I need it just as it is with just a little bit more help or good luck all the way! I hope that anyone who might read this message to you, Grace, will know that it is really important for me to know how many people might come as it's so hard to plan otherwise. Perhaps a few tickets will be sold soon rather than all in the last week! But it is a casual party and that's how we want it. I know how you love the ra in and snow (more than the sun) but please try to stop it raining on that Sunday as some of us much prefer it to be dry and warm! Always thinking of you...as you know. loads of love, hugs and kisses..Momma xxxxxx will write again soon.

Anon (4th August 2011)
Dearest Grace, I've been looking through your photographs and remembering happy times. You are always with us but also so very,very much missed. Much love, S xx

Anon (4th August 2011)
Hey Grace, just checking in- letting you know I am thinking of you. Although I think you already know. I am thinking of you all the time Grace xxxx

Momma (3rd August 2011)
Oh dear, I have been thinking of you so much all day, with everything I have done it seems...whatever it is, I think of a time when you were doing it too...mundane stuff...vacuuming, standing around the hall, looking in the mirror, looking at clothes, being in the car, shopping, chopping parsley especially, I could go on and on and I do go on and on during the day. You are as vivid as ever and it is still impossible at times to think you won't be coming back somehow. I was in the Chapel at Teddies and looked at your plaque again and remembered all the messages in the books, all the photos, gifts, poems, letters etc etc that your friends left for you over the span of more than a year. You should have enjoyed more than just school...it seems all wrong. You were so full of life and ideas...and love for your life. It's been a hard day today. Love you endlessly Grace. xxxx

Anon (31st July 2011)
xxxxx again

Momma (28th July 2011)
Grace, I have just spent a couple of hours making everything look lovely for you in the churchyard. I took some bright flowers from the garden as well as lilies. Whenever I am there I think so so so much about you and your friends and all the things I want to say and do; it is peaceful there but then I come back to the house and I forget half of what I want to think about! You wanted everything to be organised fast in the house. It hasn't happened. Thinking of you and what you said does spur me on though. But if only you were here it would all get done I know. Missing you all the time. Masses of love. xxxxx

Olivia (24th July 2011)
Grace, I'm in Northern India volunteering with children, you would absolutely love it-they are so smiley, loving and excited. I am so happy to be back; there is so much colour and beauty all around me, and I can't help but think of you all the time. I like to think that you're playing and laughing with us. I wish, as we all do, that you were here to share these things with me. My thoughts and tons of love go to all those who care about you, especially your family, and who long for you to still be here...xxxxxxx

Momma (21st July 2011)
lovely girl...I keep on hearing about the wonderful times people are having and I know you would have been having the best time of your life. But I am always so grateful you had told me, that very day, that you just couldn't be happier. Thank you for being so endlessly appreciative and always hugely considerate. How lucky we are to have those memories as part of our treasure which is you. I just want to give you a great big hug xxxxooooxxxx

Anon (21st July 2011)
Dearest Grace, summer seems to fly by but you are always in our thoughts. Your lilly will flower soon. Always think of you when I see lillies! Much love, S xx

Anon (20th July 201)
Love you and miss you as always!

Anon (19th July 201)
just a little memory... our amazing holiday in portugal and how me and you were obsessed with the ants and how clever they were taking all their food and treasures along the road.. was so funny. miss you more than ever. X x x

Flavia (15th July 2011)
Dear Grace, doing lots of art at the moment which always reminds me of you, especially of the art competition we both were in to design the dragon t-shirt logo! this website is perfect with all your works which i went to see at the teddies art gallery. i have a drawing of you in my sketchbook as i work a lot from photos and only pick those of people who are important to me, and you are obviously there. i hope you like my drawing, missing you loads and saving the date of the 17th september for you, so see you there in spirit am sure, lots of love always grace xxx

Anon (14th July 2011)
xxxxxx love you

Grace (13th July 2011)
I just wrote a whole paragraph and then deleted it..words don't really do justice. so instead im sending you lots of love. miss you so much. X x x x x x

Nadine (12th July 2011)
Grace, hello beautiful girl - I think of you often and love to look at your lovely art. I ran the marathon last year with your name on one arm and my angel Benedict on the other, everyone shouted 'come on Grace' it made me smile. This website is so special, so beautifully done, its a lovely place to visit. Much love to you and your special family. xxxx

M (10th July 2011)
All the time I remember how much I loved buying you small presents (often from charity shops which we would laugh about!)....it gave us both so much pleasure and it is so empty now. It's awful seeing things I know you would love. I remember seeing a perfect pair of shoes for you soon after the accident and it was a hard moment of revelation... to know you could never have them. It would be wonderful if you can see everything and know what I am thinking...we need to focus on that. Thinking of you as usual..........xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Momma (9th July 2011)
Grace, I have just read and re-read the previous message left by someone who must be very dear to you; I don't know who but, what I really do know is, it stirs every kind of emotion in me...joy, pride, fulfilment, misery, loneliness, sadness, emptiness, love, empathy, 0h....just so so many different feelings and there is such a mixture of overflowing pride and love because of the way you are and yet complete anquish and devastation because of the way we miss you and need you to be here with us. I have never wanted a magic wand more - to wave it and have you back home. Endless love to you........from Momma xxxxxx

Anon (5th July 2011)
Beautiful Grace, Everyone said to me that it would get easier as time goes on..and it has, but you are deeply deeply missed and its such a pain that i've never felt before and its the worst feeling in the world. People always said how special you were and what an amazing person you were but really you are so much more than that. Your presence would light up a whole room and i wish i could thank you for being the most caring and understanding person in my life. You must be in a better place now. You deserve to be so incredibly happy. I miss your laugh Grace and your perfect smile. You brought so much joy to everyones life. No matter what I do in my life, I always think of you up there and remember every piece of advice you gave me and you were ALWAYS right. You will never leave our hearts. So much love and hugs and kisses xxxxxxxxxxx

Momma (1st July 2011)
it's me again....thinking of you again....and having to tell you Grace. Although I have been afraid you will fade, I know you never will. Never for me. loads of love xxxxx

Anon (26th June 2011)
Grace thinking of you more than ever and I don't have time now to write properly and tell you everything I've been thinking but just so you, and your amazing mum, know, I love you so much and we all do. Always thinking of you x

Anon (26th June 2011)
missing you xxxxxx

Momma (25th June 2011)
It is really painful hearing all about Glastonbury knowing how much you were longing to go and help with Becks once you were 18 (the next year). All these reminders, endless reminders, are with us all constantly. Today we are going to another wedding; it will be another day when I imagine you on your wedding day. It just happens and I can't help it. Of course, people say, maybe you wouldn't have got married but I am certain you would have. Just as I am certain you would have eventually chosen a path in your life to follow which would have made you and others happy. I feel so sad you, and we, have been deprived of this fulfilment. Can't help thinking about it and you nearly all of the time. My last thoughts at night are about you and my first when I wake up. I love you now and always. I just wish I could keep doing things for you. xxx

Momma (23rd June 2011)
I think of you all the time; I'm missing you all the time. You probably know. It's all so hard. Your room smells lovely with lilies. It helps to make me feel you are there. The atmosphere is serene and you would love it Grace. (Jap is painting your bathroom at last; so good of him) xxxxxxxxxxxx

Momma (18th June 2011)
I am doing the garden; it is something that I do love to do and it absorbs my mind while at the same time I can think of you with all the flowers and scents and I am planning exactly how to make a special place which I will think of as your garden. A little while ago, you would have been looking out of your bedroom window and we would have been talking and joking as you were doing something in your room and I was gardening. I know that would have happened. Also, you would have helped me by picking the gooseberries and currants as you always did. I miss you all the time, in gigantic ways and tiny ways. Just always. xxxxx

Momma (15th June 2011)
always always thinking of you and missing you Grace. xxxxxxxx

Anon (14th June 2011)
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Jap (10th June 2011)
Thinking of you always, gorbachev. xxx

Momma (6th June 2011)
Grace, I found something out yesterday which I didn't realise before and is just so amazing to me.....and funny.....maybe you and your friends know this but Nadal has the same birthday as you do!! We all think of you when we see him (not sure you like that but, for sure, he has been my favourite for a while now!); was never sure what you thought about the teasing but I know you will have had fun; I can see you did from the photos anyway. I hear your Facebook page is inundated with messages for you and, for me, that only makes all this easier; you are with us all and so much alive in our memories and we imagine you here and how you would be at 20. You have the best friends imaginable. Well done!!! But that was easy for you. You bring us all together and life is so much richer for having you with us. And you are with us, you really are, in so many ways each day and in our minds and memories and conversations. You know how p roud I am of you and how absolutely grateful we are to have you in the family...just don't know how we managed it! Thank you for being you ............ xxxxxxxxxxxx

Linda (5th June 2011)
June 3rd Good Morning (NY time) Yes it is a good morning!!! I am remembering a beautiful little girl. I smile because she brought sunshine into our lives. I smile because of the beauty she brought to all of us. I smile because of the loving family throughout the world who will reflect on her life today. I smile because she brought so many wonderful people together in her name. I smile because I love you !!!!! Smile today! All love, Linda

Zigi (4th June 2011)
Oh Grace, I am a day late in writing, but not in thoughts - there was a wonderful thunderstorm here in South France last night, sheets of lightning and lots of noise, and I imagined it was you celebrating your birthday in style!! I looked up and sang 'Happy Birthday' which I only ever do for very special people - hope you heard me above the noise up there! Grace darling, I love you so much, you are a fab lady, no wonder you are so popular - all I need to say now is Happy Birthday and lots and lots of love from Zig xxx

Momma (3rd June 2011)
Am thinking of you on your birthday, Grace darling. If only we could know how you would be at 20. Perhaps we do really. Missing you intensely and wishing you were opening all those little parcels all in one big box that you loved so much. You have some beautiful flowers today but it is just so little......was in Top Shop on Thursday as I had to go but it really is hard to go in there and rememember you loving to look at all the clothes etc. Your favourite shop for a while. Thinking of you non stop and loving you for ever. xxx

Chloe (3rd June 2011)
ohhh Grace had an absolute shocker of a journey this evening- drove soo far out of my way even though I really knew where I should be heading towards but my common sense just didnt kick in ! made me think about the time me , you and vix got so lost in london and we kept singing our P-U-TNEY song !! Had such a lovely evening with Grace.P though...we had yummy food at a really nice pub and then went down to the river and put some sunflowers in the water for you ...we thought sunflowers were appropriate considering what an absolutely beaute day you have given us . I wish so much to have had birthday plans with you this weekend . . .miss you so much x x x x x x x x x x x x x xx

Marina Gibson (3rd June 2011)
Hello there beautiful, I have been thinking lots about you, I miss you so much, I hate to think too much. I am in NZ still studying trying to get some education done before I enter the big bad world. I hope that you are safe and you still have that beautiful smile on your face. I will never forget that. HAPPY BIRTHDAY. I miss u I miss u and I love you xxxxxxxxx

Grace (3rd June 2011)
Happy birthday!! its such a beautiful sunny day - perfect weather for the annual punting trip with the yummiest food. It's so strange looking on facebook to see all the birthday comments you're getting - makes it seems like a normal day and you are with us. I wish you were here so we could celebrate it with you..but wherever you are I hope you're having a lovely day and have got a massive smile on your face. I love you. X x x

Ely (3rd June 2011)
Mousie Happy Birthday to you! I dont no how you do it but today has been the sunniest day all year and it is so appropriate that it came on your birthday. Sometimes I feel okay about all this and feel like i have done well to accept it and then sometimes it hits me so hard and the pain is horrible. it hit me again today and made me so sad that we are not all together celebrating your birthday with you... I hope that whatever you are up to, you are having an incredible day and being spoilt rotten! Thinking of your family and Wishing you were just a phonecall away. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

M (30th May 2011)
had a wonderful birthday but also sad being the very last day on R and B's narrowboat home. Robert is so absolutely torn up about having to sell it and they have to decide today who they sell to. Lots of decisions and you would have helped so much. You always knew what was best and it seemed clear to you and we all felt better for your reasoning. People used to remark about how knowing you were and surely you have been here before. To be so settled and know so much so naturally. It was part of you. Tho we all missed you dreadfully yesterday, we included you - especially with the champagne toast! Felix was just brilliant...William came and Jap rang from Delhi and comes home today. I wish I could wave a magic wand for so many reasons...one would be to keep their boat for them. And now I am thinking of your birthday......missing your excitement........dreaming of punting ....xxxxx

Momma (28th May 2011)
missing you so much Grace....today, the minute I woke up I somehow remembered how amazingly strong you are....oh, I know why, because Barcelona was mentioned on the radio! I remembered the story of how you put your arms across the door of a crowded bus to hold back and stop all the hoards of people flooding onto it until one of your friends (who was further back) could get on! I love that image. Then I remembered how you always managed to beat our boys in arm wrestling...and how twice you won the ergo cups at the Dragon, beating the boys. I have the cups here. You were always strong......with your butterfly stroke (any stroke) speeding through the water.....Oh, and how I worried the way you would carry so much stuff, so many heavy bags constantly as you travelled on trains and buses and walked for miles visiting people. I would worry it would ruin your back for later in life. I worried your feet would be ruined by the awful shoes (with NO support) that you insisted on wearing -now I am glad you felt happy in them. We usually found a way of compromising - I would do anything to have those problems and worries back now. xxxxx

Momma (25th May 2011)
Grace, our birthdays are coming soon. It's no good being without you on mine. And SO many of your friends have birthdays in the next two weeks...it was always such a hectic time! How I would love to be buying you something on yours (perhaps I will); people will think of you and anyway we will go punting for you as we always do. We will take lots of cherries! Feel us loving you. xxxxx

Anon (25th May 2011)
xxx xxxx xxxxx xxxxxx

Momma (22nd May 2011)
Grace, I am thinking of you; it is such a mixture of hurting and happiness. Still much more of the hurting and sadness but I hope one day to feel mostly the happiness because we are so blessed to have you in our family. I am going to try to look at your precious things soon. Your trunk, with all your most treasured possessions (no clothes!) has never been opened. You packed it and touched everything last. You will have taken such care. One day before too long I will open it and remember everything. xxxxxxxx

Nigel (18th May 2011)
I went to Teddies in the '80's and read about this tragedy in the Chronicle this week. Living in Australia these past 14 years I knew little about this. She seems like she was a lovely young lady whose life ended well before it should have done. My daughter, now 10, has very many of the traits that Grace has so her life rings a chord. I wish all the best to her family and friends - you are lucky to have the memories of her. All the best.

Anon (18th May 2011)
Hi Grace, I was at Teddies with you although with great regret we never spoke or came into contact. I haven't written here before because to be honest I wouldn't know what to say but having thought about everything that happened I just want to say how inspirational I think you were, and how tragic it is that you were taken away from this world so early. Your zest for life, positive attitude, and friendliness is something we could all learn from, and if there were more Grace's in this world I really think it would be a far better place. As sad as it must be for your family to have lost you in the physical sense, they are incredibly lucky to have spent 18 years with such an amazing person, and your positivity and love will never be forgotten. Some of us spend far too long worrying in this world, and if we could learn to adopt your approach to life I'm sure we could all be much happier, better people. xxx

Grace (16th May 2011)
Hey G..everyones stuck in the middle of exams at the moment so its a pretty grim and boring time. it's so easy for your mind to wonder when you're revising, i keep thinking about the past or what the summers gonna bring. it makes so sad to think how much you're missing out on only because I know you would be thriving off it so much. I guess the only comfort coming from it is that you never let an opportunity pass you by and therefore had the best quality of life. There's never a time when I don't wish that it was all different and that you could be back with us- everyone misses you more than you'd ever know. although we all have moments of sadness and a frustrating ache to have you back, the memories we have of you always manage to make us laugh and smile and there's comfort in the fact that we'll always have them. sending you so much love and a huuugee hug. X x x

Ely (15th May 2011)
Its so easy to go through all your photos on facebook and once i start looking i cant stop. Trying to revise but thinking of you instead. missing you and wishing this was all different xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Anon (15th May 2011)
Hi Grace, just popping in to say hi. Loads of love xxxx

Anon (14th May 2011)
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Momma (12th May 2011)
Grace, I went to Teddies to take some more little flowers to plant under your tree and was so surprised to see all the pansies, violas and pinks still looking absolutely gorgeous. They have flowered throughout the coldest winter and the driest spring and still they are happily flowering. People kindly stopped to talk to me as I gardened and I soon discovered that your friends had come to Teddies on the 7th April, to the Chapel (leaving the dolly mixtures for your breakfast!) and to your bench (leaving flowers). I am told your tree, which now has lots of cherries ripening on it (maybe for the birds!), and the flowers under were looking beautiful. I am really so happy and grateful tho I do wish I had made the trip in to see the flowers on the bench; but I do now have the book some people wrote in. We will put the same book in the chapel next year. It isn't always easy to know what to say but, even if someone only signs it, it is really wonderful to know who has visited. You are so missed and none of us can help but let you know. Loving you for ever. xxxxxx

Momma (6th May 2011)
Felix loved being up with you yesterday; we took some really pretty roses and he sat there for ages gurgling while I arranged them and cut the grass and watered a bit. It is my deepest yearning that you would know all this Grace. It is peaceful and pretty up there and we feel you are with us. But, then, you are with us all over the place ... here, right now, as I write. love you so much. xxxxx

Anon (3rd May 2011)
Grace, Easter flew by way too fast as per usual but it was so much fun. So many nights were spent with all our friends together as always and with uni taking us further apart, a lot of time is spent reminiscing about the good times at school. It's no surprise you play such a huge part in so many of these memories and i am sure you enjoy knowing the happiness you still spread by making us laugh. I am so sad as I can't even begin to comprehend how much fun we would have had if you were still alive. All my thoughts are with your family and i miss you more than ever. XXX

Anon (2nd May 2011)
Dear Grace, I'm sorry I haven't written earlier but as I only knew you some time ago at the dragon I didn't feel it was really my place, but having read some of the recent messages I wanted to share a memory of you which was the first thing I thought of when I heard the terrible news and is my clearest and most recurring memory of you. I remember we were coming back in a coach from a school trip and you had had an argument with someone during the day. I was sitting in the seat behind you and I heard them say 'I don't like you any more' and you just said 'well that's fine but I still like you'. and for me that just summed up your incredible generosity of spirit, and your kindness which outshone all of ours. Thinking of all the family. x x x

Momma (29th April 2011)
Missing you and thinking of you masses today...it's been a happy day. Loads of love xxx

Flavia (28th April 2011)
The dragon reunion in early 2009, where only a couple of us turned up! was the last time i saw you... and that seems like yesterday, and yesterday seems like today. i am always thinking of you. I remember you saying how us two were the less 'cool kids' of Cherwell when we first arrived, you being from India and me from France but we still, despite are 'uncoolness', didn't mingle...we really should have teamed up right from the begining!...this was very soon to change however, after the couple of days of stress being in a new school and have to make new friends, and me knowing only how to count to 12 in english, we made friends. You made a really good friend to everyone. I have only good memories, the rowing eton course and our many wins with ruth...remember when we did our 50km row to oxford i think it was...i live just by there, and every time i walk my dog or come home, your there too, with us rowing, i think i was even sporting a very unfashionable straw hat during those two days of rowing!...on that note - fashion, i envied your huge purple flared cords, and the many other pairs you owned, of which one you gave me! i went to buy my own pair - large flared Velvet brown ones...thank god fashion has changed since the dragon years! missing and thinking of you eternally lots of love grace x

Momma (28th April 2011)
Grace, you would love the invitation to your party. It shows some of your Alice in Wonderland art...I know how much you loved doing that art. It is on your Facebook now and I hope all the people you would want to come to your party will be able to be there. We will all want you to be there........tons of love xxxxx.

Carol (26th April 2011)
Thank you so so (as Grace would say!) much for these wonderful messages....simple yet so beautifully expressed. Knowing how much people feel is massively helpful and comforting and just to know that time is spared to think of our family and Grace is awesome to me. Sharing such a great sadness helps us to bear it. x

Lee Reed (24th April 2011)
I am Kate's mum and she was at Teddies with Grace. I have known about this site through Kate and since reading your last message about how it helps you I feel maybe it would help to know that my heart broke for you when it happened and I can hardly bear to think of the pain you must feel each and every day. Although I never met Grace I heard about her through Kate and how very very lovely and kind she was. To lose such a daughter is unimaginable. I am sure that if it were possible for all us mums to get together to take upon ourselves a little of the pain you feel to make your loss more bearable we would do so in a heartbeat.

Bella (22nd April 2011)
thinking of you all Xxxx

Momma (22nd April 2011)
Now I do have something new for you Grace, for Easter. It is a lovely Chinese poem a very kind and thoughtful friend has sent me. I know you would love it. Here is is: “You have taken your big candle Into another room……. I cannot find, But I know that you were here Because of the happiness You left behind…” I am thinking of all that happiness now. I also remember how sad Easter was two years ago because you were not here and how you were longing to be able to eat chocolate again after Lent. We laughed. Precious Grace, we will always remember the happiness. xxxxxxx

Momma (21st April 2011)
Grace, I know I am always saying the same things...but I want to and have to and need to....I really miss you and we all love you so much. Thinking of you now xxxxxxxx

Carol (21st April 2011)
I just don't know what to say but I am so touched by knowing that wonderful people are able to express themselves on Grace's website. I (and I can't be alone in this) gain enormous support from knowing how deeply others feel. I think about it all the time. It is truly heart warming and strengthening. Thank you so much to Deborah and all who look at Grace's website and keep Grace alive so that she is still able to spread her love and sense of fun. Because of the support for us and love for Grace we felt on the 7th, the day felt positive and all the messages people leave continue to strenghthen the positive. It really helps to keep going forward. Thank you. x

Deborah Reader (19th April 2011)
As a Mother myself, I want to send my love to you, Grace's Mother. I read a poem many years ago and have searched for it but cannot find it now. If I do find it I will send it to you. I remember it saying that when you become a Mother, in a way you become one to all children, because you understand that endless, unselfish love that Mothers have for their children. I just want to say that you are a wonderful , wonderful Mother and Grace must have adored you. xxxxx

Momma (18th April 2011)
Oh gosh, Grace, I hope you know about these lovely people who write on the website; if only they, themselves, would believe that there is not a person anywhere who should feel hesitant about writing because now this is living confirmation of how much you live on, will not be forgotten and still influence so many for the good. As for me, these messages make all the difference to my life just now. Grace I just could not be more proud of you and I know how truly you are loved. Of course everyone knows you were not perfect! We are so lucky you were never ever a difficult teenager but we all know you got a little grumpy at times! But I don't know anyone who ever bore less of a grudge or got over a bad mood more quickly with no reference to it ever again. Looking back, there are times when you were desperately sad or worried when I so wish I could have comforted you more. You would do anything not to worry me though. You are th e sweetest and most loving and considerate daughter anyone could ever wish for. My darling Grace. xxxxxxxxxx PS Your flowers are still unbelievably beautiful. Not one single bloom has died (10 days). I took masses of photos of them in the churchyard yesterday. I love you.

Ben (18th April 2011)
Grace, I haven't written anything yet because although I did know you at The Dragon I didn't feel like it was my place. But looking through all the stuff on here has made me think about how amazing you were, always sweet and loving and kind whenever you saw me. It's so, so sad that you're not here any more. I hope everything is alright where you are poppet. Thinking of you and your beautiful, beautiful smile. Lots and lots of love. xxxxxxxxx

Anon (17th April 2011)
I do not know you grace and feel maybe i shouldnt write on here but i feel i need to.I live in oxfordshire and happened to stumble across your website and have been reading the lovely messages below. From everything that has been said you seemed like such a beautiful person. Its amazing how you have touched my emotions and i have never even met you. Your artwork is so beautiful and this website is so beautiful which must be because you are as well. You have been in my thoughts all day. With love for you and your family

Momma (15th April 2011)
I have been every day to see all the flowers given to you by everyone who came to our service on the 7th. I have just come back from the church yard and, once again, was stunned by the quantity and wonderful scents there. Maybe most amazing of all is that not one single flower has died yet and it is now more than a week. They look and smell really beautiful and I do hope that some of the people who gave them might read this and know how lovely their flowers still are and how much pleasure they are giving. And there is the sweetest little angel in a bottle with an angel message too. All for you. I heard there are dolly mixtures in the school chapel for you too.....you would just love that! All these are happy things and I love you tons and tons and tons.........xxxxxxxx

David (15th April 2011)
With respect! I never knew Grace but I read and followed the tragedy! For some reason it touched me and made me sad! I hope there is something after this life so that Grace's parents and loved ones can be with her again!

Momma (11th April 2011)
Darling Grace....the huge bunch of pale pink lilies in your room is absolutely beautiful and as soon as the door is opened the scent is overwhelming and I can only think of you and all the happiness you have given us but also all the happiness you would be having with your friends and with us and in your room which is just so perfect for you. By now you would have arranged it in your usual uniquely caring and artistic way which I love so much and will endlessly miss. I suppose the aching will lessen one day but, for now, I love and miss you more than any words can begin the explain. My darling girl......xxxxxxxxxxxx

Alex, John, Rachel, Lydia and Elois (7th April 2011)
Dearest Grace ~ Today was sunny, warm, breezy, beautiful and full of the promise that Spring brings and we all missed you so ... love from Alex, John, Rachel, Lydia and Eloise xXx

Momma (7th April 2011)
Grace Today was good. It was wonderful to see your friends at our service and to see all the most beautiful and fragrant flowers they all brought. We were all able to think of you deeply during the service and Francis read the lovely (anonymous) poem I had found on a card in Stow church. I want to write it here so everyone can share it: ''If I should die and leave you here awhile, Be not like others sore undone, who keep long vigils By the silent dust and weep, For my sake turn again to life and smile, Nerving thy heart and trembling hand to do, Something to comfort other hearts than thine. Complete these dear unfinished tasks of mine, And I, perchance, may therein comfort you.'' Special love to you Grace.........xxxxx

J (7th April 2011)
Gracie, it's been 2 years now and nobody seems to be able to come to terms with all of this. Whenever I try and write to you it's so difficult because I feel that everything has already been said and yet nothing has been said at all and no words will ever be enough. In the same way, 2 years feels like a whole lifetime and yet, when I think of you on that night in Oxford, it feels just like yesterday. No one can stop thinking about how unfair it is that you are not with us any longer and yet everybody knows that you were too good for this earth anyway. It is a struggle for all of us to move on with our lives because we can't stop thinking about how easy it would be if we could just turn back time and make all of this go away. I get the feeling that lots of your friends, including me, are terrified that one day we might forget you, but we wont Grace, we never will. You and I weren't best friends at school but even I still think of y ou every, single day. I really cannot imagine what the struggle must be like for your closest friends and family. Everybody loves you so, so much and nobody can stop thinking about you even after all this time, especially with the gorgeous weather at the moment. I cannot help but feel that you have not really gone but that you live on in our memories and everything that surrounds us. Please help everyone through this hard time, we all love you and all of our thoughts and prayers go to your family now more than ever. J xxxxx

Zigi xxx
Gracie, Gracie -I'm here in South of France sitting next to a rosemary bush which has a nest of 3 baby blackbirds, all with their beaks wide open and calling for food, and thinking about you and wondering if you can see them too - I dont write to you very often, but you will know who much I think about you and miss you. I'm doing my best to help and support Momma, and I want you to know that I am always here for her and Poppa. We all miss you so much, and love you even more - xxxxx

Momma (7th April 2011)
Beautiful Grace, maybe you can see your Facebook page (or is it a wall?); I am so glad I have seen it. I wish I could print it here! You would be astonished that so many friends still want to express how they feel about you (or perhaps you are getting used to it by now!). We all feel the same really....as though it is an age without you and yet no time at all. None of us knows if or when it will get any easier. You continue to be around for all of us and we can often learn from your example. You have made your mark here on this earth, I really know that. So many will always love you; and I will always be so proud of you Grace. Yesterday was difficult remembering all the fun we had exactly two years ago on that Monday. And then knowing the time you left for the station - but yesterday Poppa and I had such a lovely pub lunch together with Ely, Imo, Aggie and Annie. Just what you would love and we felt you with us. Thank you for being you........all my lo ve today and every day. Momma xxxx

Ann (7th April 2011)
Thinking of you today especially - I think of you a lot anyway but two years ago today was so very sad for your Mum and Dad and so many people whose lives you touched. I love you..............Ann

Allison, Norman and Annabel (7th April 2011)
Dearest Grace, All of us who have had the extraordinary and joyful blessing of knowing you are thinking of you. The Proutys have a thousand recollections of you as a six and seven year old long ago in India, but your age then is irrelevant -- we KNEW who you were. Our vivid knowledge is of your wonderful, strong personality--equal parts committed generosity, fierce competitive heart, and effervescent delight in all around you, including and especially your exceptional family. We treasure the super high wattage image of your amazing, dimpled smile. With so much admiration and love always, Allison, Norman and Annabel

Anon (7th April 2011)
I am so sorry I can't make the service today Grace, I would have loved to. Thinking of you so much xxx

Ann (7th April 2011)
G. Today is a sad day for us because we remember how painful it was two years ago and how hard it continues to be. But I don't want to feel sad about you. I want to feel happy and lucky to always have such a spectacular person in my life. So I say thank you to you today for always making life easier and more joyful. And for making me look forward to things - even to the things which seemed dull and tedious - because you'd be there to make it fun. I love you very much xx

J (7th April 2011)
I am just so sad. It shouldn't be worse today because your not here every day but for some reason today is just impossible. I miss you so much I can't even understand what has happened. I'm so sad I can't be at your service and I hate not being near Oxford it makes me feel like I'm so much further away from you for some reason. We're so lost without you Grace x

Bella (6th April 2011)
thinking of you so much Grace, and your bros and parents and extended family and friends and everyone at this time. Just the worst feeling being so helpless in terms of trying to make the situation better. Having girls round for supper tomorrow night and you will be on our minds so much. Really praying for your family, i hope you can stay strong, tons of love Xxxxxxxxxxxxx

Immy (6th April 2011)
Can never stop thinking about you, I can't believe it has been 2 years since the accident. Still feels like yesterday. It is so hard right now not to be with you as I know how much you loved birthdays, so i am going to try and be happy for you tomorrow as i know you would hate me to be sad. missing you always, and loving you always. xxxxxxxxxx

Momma (5th April 2011)
Darling Grace, I want everyone to know that there will be a service for you on the 7th in our church at Lower Swell at 11am (only a simple quick communion service) which is for everyone though very few will be able to come I know. Also, Teddies chapel will be open all day which might help those who would like to (and can) drop in for a few minutes. I haven't had enough time, and the weather has not been good when I have tried, to make the flowers under your tree look really pretty. They do look good but I want to plant a lot more! But I have enjoyed making it look pretty in the church yard. Hope the flowers last till Thursday! So many people love you, we all feel blessed that you have been part of our lives. Missing you so much. Love you so much. Momma xxxxxxxx

Ferg (4th April 2011)
Hey Grace, I haven't been on here for a while but I love coming on and seeing the number of people that think about you almost constantly. It makes sense to me though, I can't stop thinking about you, especially at the moment. Every day I wish more and more that this had never happened. It's hard being up in Newcastle with very few people to talk to about you. Even so, you should know that you are always on my mind and I will never forget you. Missing you always. Ferg xxx

Susan (4th April 2011)
Dear Grace I have just managed to copy your photo from the Chronicle.The photo captures everything about you. It is a wonderful article too. The most recent photo I have of you was taken in Wales some years ago with Alice. I will be thinking of you especially on April 7, Nothing is so beautiful as Spring - Much love xx

Lara (2nd April 2011)
hi babe. missing you as i do always, thinking of that toy story song which reminds me of a video we made. 'you got a friend in me'... its impossible not to think of you when i see or hear certain things, summer, punting, cherries, bagles, cinnamon, the chocolate bronzer you always had, sugars almonds, pretty dresses, not getting your hair cut, swimming, our 4 poster bed, i will think about you every day for the rest of my life, i find it comforting so much of you is still here and with me. love you x

Momma (31st March 2011)
Still thinking of you constantly Grace...but why would it change? ....and it is getting closer to 7th April all the time. Love you so much. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Momma (24th March 2011)
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Momma (23rd March 2011)
I am thinking of you constantly Grace. So many things keep on and on hitting me as I remember. Today I was so sad remembering how you SHOULD have been at the house singing competition, having fun, and how I can't believe you stayed to work instead. And how you cried. Oh, it is all so dreadfully unfair. There are so so many things I wish had been different but mostly I am just endlessly grateful you are the way you are. Although it hurts, I am eternally grateful I love you so much. As we get closer to 7th April, I am trying to think of a few little things for you. We don't need them to remember you but I need to do things for you. It seems quite impossible that it is nearly two years since I last saw you. Honestly. And love will never fade. xxxxxxxx

Anon (23rd March 2011)
Dearest Grace, it was on a beautiful Spring morning like this that we last spoke in this world. You are so much in our thoughts, so loved and so missed. S xx

Bethf-c (16th March 2011)
Grace, ive really been thinking a lot about you recently, i still think about you most days, i just remember you came to stay at my house for my 13th birthday and you helped me curl my hair. I really do miss you everyday and wish you were here to see everyone! it helps me to know you are up in heaven, looking down on everyone. I pray every night for you and your family, as i cant even begin to imagine how much they must miss you. I just pray that they can know that you are there, giving them the strength to carry on and celebrate how truly lovely and sweet you really were. All my love, Beth xxx

Momma (15th March 2011)
Oh Grace, just see these messages from your dear friends....I so so wish 'J''s dream would be true. We all do. Missing you is the most gigantically huge feeling. Impossible to understand let alone explain. Loving you, Momma xxxxx

J (15th March 2011)
Hey Grace, Had the most vivid dream about you last night - more real than I have had for ages. I can't remember what exactly happened but it turned out that you not being here had just been some sort of cover up and you had had to go away from us but now you were finally allowed back and could stay in our lives forever. I remember thinking - is this a dream, Grace can't really be here, but it seemed so real and I just can't stop thinking about it. We were all back together and it just seemed so real and I can't comprehend that I woke up and it's actually all real. I miss you so much I don't even realize and this has just brought it all back like you've been taken away from us all over again. I can't explain how much I miss you and how utterly devastated I am that you're not here. I need to speak to someone about you but I don't know who. I so wish I could ring you right now. I love you so much x

Ely (15th March 2011)
Mousie I came on here just to have a look as i often do, I wasn't going to write to you but I am now because I wanted to tell you that I have decided to give up chocolate for lent! can you believe it? My first time ever doing anything for lent. so far so good! I hope your impressed and that i make it till the end. 40 days without a malteaser bunny... eek. Fingers crossed. Thinking of you this evening, would love to chat. Miss you xxx

Anon (12th March 2011)
There's tons of lovely bright yellow daffodils all over at the moment, and even sprinkles of pink and white fallen blossom. I love this time of year, and as is the same for so many others, this brightness after the dullness of winter can only make me think of you. P.S. I feel like I should tell you that I broke my lent today... I know-I haven't done well at all! But it was an accident, I promise... xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Anon (11th March 2011)
Grace, the sun's been shining the whole week and all I can think about is you. I've sat here and read the whole service for your funeral and it brings a tear to my eye that I wasn't there. You are always in my thoughts and will be forever. It feels like yesterday when I last saw your smile. I know you're here now. Wherever you are, I hope you're okay. I miss you with every second and I love you with all my heart. B x

Momma (10th March 2011)
grace - the realisation that there will be no new memories is very painful but I am eternally thankful and grateful for all the beautiful and happy memories of you that we will keep for the rest of our lives. It is precious to be able to smile and laugh at something funny you did or said. And I am always learning more from you friends so maybe, after all, there will always be something new to learn about you! Your loving Momma xxxxx

Meg (9th March 2011)
I received the magazine from your Mother. The large picture of you reminds me so much of your Momma at Kankakee High School. It was a lovely article.

Vicky (7th March 2011)
hello. i came to see you on friday and it was so sunny and your little area is looking so pretty because your mummy has planted lots of little flowers. we keep getting bright sunny days with no clouds and they make me think of you. i could have stayed with you for hours. but i went and had tea and yummy brownies at your house. i miss you every single day smell man and would give the world to hear your goofy laugh or just be with you for a few minutes like old times....X X X X

J (6th March 2011)
hey gracie, thinking of you a lot at the mo as the sun comes out and it feels like the spring is here with snowdops and daffodils bringing so much colour. wish u were here so much, i was sitting today wishing i could know what you would be doing at the moment if you were still with us, whetherr we'd be planning our summer with you and whether i'd be seeing you this weekend. i know i would. i miss you so much X

Momma (6th March 2011)
Thinking of you. It helps a little if I write it down to you. I don't know why because you'll know anyway........xxxxxxx

Momma (28th February 2010)
xxxxxxxxxxx I love you

Momma (28th February 2010)
Grace I am remembering how today two years ago we came to watch you in a netball match, which you won, in Cheltenham. You were so happy. You made us such a funny anniversary card on the bus. I have been looking for that particular card to put up today but our house is still in chaos. I had it last year. I want to be sure to have it for next year. Meanwhile, I have found birthday cards and mothers' day cards for almost every year since you were able to draw and write and I love them all so much and will treasure every one. THANK YOU for always being so wonderfully thoughtful. How lucky I am. Missing you ............. xxxxxxxxxxx

Anon (28th February 2010)
Grace, as Spring emerges then retreats you are ever in our thoughts. Happy vibrant memories of all the love and joy you gave. But also the great sadness of April approaching. Much love, S xx

Momma (20th February 2010)
I have been trying all day to choose some lovely flowers for under your tree in the quad; I am wondering if I am choosing the right ones. I want them all to have scent but then they are not the right size or colour perhaps! All the daffs and snowdrops we planted for you at the churchyard look lovely now. I am going to plant more primroses too. They are scented and so are the hyacinths just about to bloom. Always thinking of you. xxxxxxxx

Ely (20th February 2011)
Mousie Im just writing this message because I went home this weekend and there was a teddies chronical magasine. There is a big spread all about you, Mrs Wright had written a really good piece and there was one of the school photos that was taken of you in house, I think for the school website- its so funny because you have a book in your hand and I think they wanted a photo of you reading, but actually the picture is incredible, your have a huge smile across your face and look so happy. you are wearing the lower school uniform so i think it was taken in 5th form... anyway i love the photo so i ripped it out and its now on my wall above my desk at uni. Wishing you were here and loving you very much xxx

J (17th February 2010)
Miss you so much.. It still feels so surreal - sometimes I'm just sitting there thinking about you and it seems completely impossible you aren't here. Miss you so much, really need a chat and a cuddle and to hear your laugh x x x x

Momma (17th February 2011)
missing, missing, missing you........and thinking about all you are missing too; I still find it hard to realise xxxx

Anon (16th February 2011)
A belated message but you will never be forgotten on St Valentine's day. Always loving you x x x

Fran (16th February 2011)
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Momma (14th February 2011)
Darling Grace. Today is Valentine's day, full of hearts and kisses. You always made cards and pictures bursting with hearts and kisses for us. Even now I find hearts all over the place...from you. I miss that special way of communicating with you and am so glad we had it. You will have shown your love just as clearly to your friends and special people in your life. Because I know your friends love you too, I want to copy the words they wrote especially for you, below this quote: 'Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away' - your friends wrote: "You would take our breath away with your beautiful face, you would take our breath away with your dimples and your smile, you would take our breath away with your passion for life and want of no regret, you would take our breath away with your unwavering loyalty, you would take our breath away with your eternal faith. It is you that took our breath away Grace." You are loved and cherished today and forever.xxxxxxxxxxx(I wish I could type a heartxxxxxxxxx)

Meg (10th February 2011)
I am reading all of the messages from your friends and especially from my dear friend, your Momma. She misses you teribbly and loves you so much. I know you are watching over her. Much love, Meg

Momma (8th February 2011)
Oh Grace, I have read through some of the messages just now. Anyone who reads them would feel as I do. They are very moving and you would really never believe how many people love you and how much you are missed. Please be able to see them...........I can't write more tonight. I love you, think of you all day and as I fall asleep and then as I wake up. Of course I always get on with lots of things I need to do, and you would want me to do, but you are never far from my thoughts. Precious girl, I love you xxx

Alex, John, Lydia, Eloise, Rachel, Patricia and Laurie (6th February 2011)
Dearest Grace ~ It's Chinese New Year and we're thinking about booking the beach hut again, we were there last summer and eaxh one of us has a cherished memory of the time you joined us. You had such an affinity with the sea - moving through the waves with such poise and ease. Just as you did in the swimming pool - skimming across the water with your butterfly stroke< especially. You made it look so effortless - as you did with all your swimming ~ resulting in many wins and successes for the club and county - all with such humility and modesty - and fun. Your laughter and sense of fun will be with us today, tomorrow it'll be your loving and giving nature, the day after it'll be your style and creativity and the day after that you will be with us in all we think or do.
Love Alex, John, Lydia, Eloise, Rachel, Patricia and Laurie xXx

Anon (6th February 2011)
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Momma (2nd February 2011)
I have been thinking and knowing how proud I am of you. I have so much to say to you. I love you very much. xxxxx

Lara (29th January 2011)
i miss you, i miss the way we used to laugh together, the way that no matter what we were there for each other, i miss coming up to my room and finding you on my bed, i miss you being the person i want to share things with, all those lovely clothes that you looked so nice in, i miss that you knew me so well and would predict what i would do, i miss you making mistakes then writing me sorry letters, i miss being excited to see you, being jelious of you, i miss being cross at you, and when i think back to the times when we were in greece and nothing mattered i cant really face the fact that your gone. i really want you back here. now i just wish we had longer together, more memories and a chance to do it all over again. if you can somehow see this i just want you to know, that-this whole thing, minus the accident is that i just simply miss my friend and i want you back x

Olivia (29th January 2011)
I think of you all the time. Most things I do brings you into my head and it's lovely. I miss you terribly, as everyone does. xxxxxx

MB (28th January 2011)
I miss you

Momma (27th January 2011)
missing you every moment. xxxxxxxx

Chloe (25th January 2011)
Hi Grace, I was just listening to Faith Hill...I like listening to it and remembering the girls singing it for you because I know you would have liked it. It had a quote at the beginning saying 'it takes a moment to change history. It takes love to change lives' I know its a bit cringe (c,c,c,!!!) but made me think of you.... love you x x x x x p.s. I think I did pretty well tonight at sticking to my new years resolution you would be very proud!

Ely (25th January 2011)
Hi Mousie. As usual I could really do with having you around right now. things havent been easy and I know that you would be able to sort me out. We all miss you here, you would love this uni life. Its so unfair. I hope that wherever you are you realise how adored you will always be. So much love xxx

Anon (24th January 2011)
hey grace, i am just another boy for teddies thinking about you, it is in th middle of jan so it is a hard mouth but we all know that the summers coming but also the exams.......:( looking at all of these messages it really does show how much every body loved and really cared for you, and every day when we walk past your bench we smile and remeber all of the good times you must of had here, also i really like your photo in the libary of the old man..... it is amazing. we will rember you always. xxxxxxx

Momma (24th January 2011)
I have lots of yellow roses for you. I hope they defy the frost again.......xxxxxxxxxxxx

Grace (21st January 2011)
I came back to Uni yesterday and spoke to one of my flatmates for so long last night. Over the Christmas holidays a similar story happened to one of her really good friends - but there is something about it that has stuck in the back of my mind. The story isnt necessary to tell - but what I've drawn from it, is that I really believe things happen for a reason. And however much I hate you not being here, I believe that your kind nature and fun-loving character are needed elsewhere - its too much of a waste to be anything else. Love you always gorgeous. X x x

Anon (19th January 2011)
Grace, it's a gloomy time of year but memories of you brighten our lives and our perspective. Always in our thoughts and always making the world a better place. Much love, S xx

Fran (18th January 2011)
Each time I try and write something I get too upset or feel that it doesn't explain what I want to say so I end up not posting it. But I really am thinking of you the whole time, you really meant so much to everyone. Forever unbelievable. I know i'll miss you every single day X

Momma (16th January 2011)
Scents are so evocative and I have just found your Diesel; you might just as well be here because it feels and smells as though you are. You are the only one I know who used it so for me it is you. Have also found so many old Christmas drawings and things you made when you were small in Bangalore. Such happy happy times. We all miss you so much; I know I can never stop. One day surely I might stop writing but I don't know when. For now it helps. I love you so much. xxxxx

Momma (14th January 2011)
I really am missing you so much. Everywhere and all the time. xxxxxxxxxx

Momma (9th January 2011)
Grace...everyone is very busy going back to university for exams but some have spared time to come and see you and us and we have had such a lovely time with you always at the centre of so much we talk about. Again I can only say how much I understand why you always wanted to spend so much time with your friends and how glad I am that I don't think I ever stopped you...I expect I did, and you would have been disappointed, but I can't remember those times because you would never make much fuss or get too grumpy about it. You understood and enjoyed family stuff too. Thank you, again, for being you....just the way you always have been and always will be. xxxxx

Anon (5th January 2011)
I think about you nearly all the time. You should be here. It's as though you were here just the other day and so you should turn up again any minute. It still doesn't seem real. Sometimes I think that surely I will wake up from this nightmare and everything will be as it used to be. I long for that but I know it can't happen. I love you.. xxxx

Momma (1st January 2011)
It's another new year without you...and I missed your midnight call so much. I love you tho I can't really say how much. It is too hard to put into words. You are so precious. xxxxxx

Anon (27th December 2010)
never stop thinking of you.......xxxxx

Momma (26th December 2010)
Darling Grace - we thought of you all day yesterday, Christmas day. I kept thinking about how much you would be helping (especially with the short eats!) and how encouraging and appreciative I know you would be. You always always found everything perfect on the day. Thank you. I LOVE YOU. We have the usual art you did when you were about 6 up ....that will always be part of Christmas too. We have made your room look very Christmassy and Jap has put lovely lights there. We have put your cards and special Christmas ornaments up. Not quite as well as you would have done though! Your cards from your friends make us realise how many people love you and you will never be lonely. Your friends are wonderful, so many have sent me texts or emails for Christmas. Some visit you too. They all think about you. It is impossible not to write to you, to feel you are close, but it is also impossible to be able to express what I want to say...so I am just thinking a lot as usual .............xxxxxxx

J (26th December 2010)
Thinking of you so much over Christmas when I know you would love to be here so much and play in all the snow! I miss you more than you can imagine, wish you were here so much x x x

Anon (25th December 2010)
God bless you and all your family and a very merry Christmas to you all. X

Ely (22nd December 2010)
Only 2 days until christmas and once again i cant belive that you are not here. I really hope that you can read all these messages and are proud of how loved you are. miss you hugely and thinking of you and your family especially over christmas time. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Momma (21st December 2010)
ps : You would think the tree is beautiful. We miss you sharing the decorating but your little glass angel with the heart is there. Thinking of you and how much you love Christmas. Momma xxx

Momma (21st December 2010)
Everyone is so busy with Christmas and it is so so snowy. Have not even had the car out yet for days. I was thinking how much I would love you to cook supper tonight. I remember the last shopping list you gave me -I know the meal would have been delicious just like all your others. You are a perfectionist...Even William couldn't find anything rude to say! I miss you SO much. For so many different reasons. Love love love you...xxxxxxxx

Anon (20th December 2010)
Dearest Grace, as we are snowed in and the songs of Christmas echo in every corner you are more than ever in our hearts and our thoughts. Fond memories on earth and an increased wonder about heaven Merry Christmas to a true angel. S xx

Momma (19th December 2010)
Oh Grace, how you would love this snow...you have never seen so much and you are the one who loves it more than anyone else I know. It is quiet, peaceful and beautiful here today. Where are you? I can't bear you missing absolutely everything now. I love you so so much darling Grace. xxxxx

Momma (17th December 2010)
Grace, we have just been to the Carol Service at Lower Swell...the one you always read in. So many people thought about you, I never stopped. Poppa read - he walked up the aisle without a limp for the first time. We visited you in the moonlight...so bright out in the churchyard. So cold. You loved that service and all the build up to Christmas. You would be getting so excited now, decorating your new room where at last you would have space to arrange it beautifully. I will imagine it. You always managed in your tiny room. It amazed me how magical you always made it look. You will always be part of our Christmas and with us forever. Loving you.....xxxxxxxxx

J (16th December 2010)
Hello Grace.. x

Bella (12th December 2010)
Thinking and praying for you guys over christmas especially. Xxxxxx

Ely (11th December 2010)
Its always the same from me Mousie, I miss you. sometimes it hits me when i least expect it and that always the hardest. i have thought of you so much these last 2 days and I try to think positively as i know you would want me to. christmas makes it even harder as this was your time, your favourite and happiest time that you cherished. I wish you were here, simple as that. love you xxx

Lil (10th December 2010)
Dearest Grace, There is this peace I feel within me. Its the knowledge that nothing in life could ever be as awful as losing someone close and dear to me. Its through this knowledge and the truly wonderful friend you were to me that has helped me to be the person I am today. The smallest of things make me happy nowadays and whenever I find myself challenged or fearful I think to myself 'for Grace'. Knowing you has given me the confidence to believe in myself, enjoy the experiences life throws at me, make the most out of them, learn from them and move onto the next one. I am no longer scared, I embrace life in a way I know you would have done. For this I am eternally grateful to you. I feel so unbelievably privileged to have been your friend, you really are amazing Grace. xxxxxxxx

Anon (10th December 2010)
I'm so confused at the moment and with everything going on it only highlights the fact that I wish you were here so much, because I can't help but feel you'd know what to do. I hate not having you around, and I hate how the feeling of knowing that can still be so raw. I just hope you're watching over us somewhere and in particular over your family; I'm thinking of them just as much. Thats all my words can gather right now..nothing will ever be able to express what I want to say. Miss you too much. All my love. X x x

Momma (8th December 2010)
Oh Grace...all at the same time I feel so much. So much pride that you have touched so many lives; so much totally and truly agonising sadness that you are not here now, for your future (and for all of our futures). I am trying to attempt to start to sort your life which is left for me. All your treasures, the clothes you loved, the school work you didn't love so much but some that you absolutely did (like maths); your half expressed art ..the Alice in Wonderland project and the photos you wanted to arranged on the black board, which is all written on in your writing (which I love so much)....it is all in your head and I cannot quite fathom it out; I see your precious photos and pictures given by so many friends. And I have never opened your trunk. How will I manage that? I know how carefully you always packed it with the things you loved so much and you always insisted we carry it flat (SO heavy!) so it didn't tip up. You were the last one to touch those things, choose how to pack them. All of these things make YOU. Sometimes I think of discussing your future with you, it just seems so real. You seem to have just been here yesterday. I miss you intolerably. Christmas is too hard here without you. But I am sure you must know how much we all love you. Darling Grace. I wish I could truly thank all your wonderful friends who write. You will have affected them all in some way. You would never have realised. I so often think of the warmth you radiate. xxxxxxxxxxx

Jess (9th December 2010)
Hey Gracie, Just a quick one to say how much I love you and how much you're there in everything I do. Always thinking of you. Was looking through photos of Portugal the other day and all the hilarious things we did, I'd love to go back there so much. I hope you remember our nature trail. Love you always x

Anon (7th December 2010)
I can't believe that this has come around so quickly, I don't know how to feel, I still don't fully understand it, I don't think that I ever will. You would be so excited about how amazingly Christmasy everything is right now, there has been so much snow and amazingly cheesy christmas music everywhere and I just wish more than anything that you could be here. Everyone loves and misses you so much, it is completely incomprehensible how you really,truly and deeply touched the lives and hearts of so many people in such a short space of time, it is such a testament to how special you are. Thinking of you and your family, always and forever Amazing Grace xxx

Anon (7th December 2010)
At the most unexpected times the deepest thoughts about you are prompted. Recently it seems to be happening more than ever. New friends ask me if i knew of you and i cant even begin to explain. I miss you so much XX

Momma (6th December 2010)
So many people thought of you on Saturday. When Amazing Grace was sung on X Factor. I always think of you and I will forever. So many people love you Grace. It doesn't surprise me. You really have always been amazing. xxxxxxxxxxx

Anon (2nd December 2010)
Charlotte sang so beautifully this evening. And in the finale, O Holy Night, as her voice soared and the tears ran down my cheeks I know many of us were thinking of you and felt your presence with us in church. S xx

Momma (1st December 2010)
Missing you so much with all this snow you would love.......xxxxxxxxxxxxx

Momma (27th November 2010)
Oh Grace, just now I caught sight of one of the photos of you playing netball, getting ready to pass, you loved netball so much and you were such a brilliant shooter (most of the time!). I treasure the memories of us practicing together here at home, all the matches I came to watch and how proud I was of you. How you loved to go back to school on the bus and how I loved it when you phoned afterwards... often happily telling me you had been voted 'man of the match'........those days are so precious now but I knew they were at the time too. I can see you so clearly playing netball, hockey and tennis - and always swimming. It hurts. It seems so impossible that you are not here. Thinking of you always...I feel so much love for you xxxxxxxx

Mary (26th Niovember 2010)
The Hadman Family,
May I begin by saying that you don't know me and I was never lucky enough to meet Grace however, her her story touched me. I can't begin to imagine what you have all been through, however, I felt compelled to contact you as, when I read about what had happened to Grace, I cried. It simply seemed so very unfair. From the newspaper reports, I saw a young, innocent and stunningly beautiful girl who appeared to have so much ahead of her. From what I have read from the messages/tributes on her website, she truly appeared to be beautiful both on the inside and outside and someone who made a real impact in the lives of the people she met. I cried because it was unfair, I got angry because it was unfair and, despite not knowing her, I still think of Grace and you, her Family and pray that her memory lives on in her Art and her smile. I wanted to contact you a few months ago but didn't quite know how to put into words what I felt, I'm still not entirely sure I've managed that but I simply wanted you to know that I care. Mary

Momma (24th November 2010)
night night, I love you Grace xxxxx

Ely (22nd November 2010)
Mousie- We had another re-union weekend in manchester on saturday for jess's birthday. it was so lovely to see everyone, I just know that you would have had such a fun time with us. we all miss you so much. lOVE YOU xxx

Mr Chitsenga (22nd November 2010)
Grace, me dear, noone can fill the hole you left in my life. The Zimbabwean orphans we used to talk about miss your philanthropic work. May the merciful Lord keep you in His warm arms until we meet again. HC

Jess (21st November 2010)
Hey Gracie, miss you more than anything.. I know you would be so happy about my birthday present and I hope you know that I couldn't think of anything I would rather have, it makes it feel like you're here with me today. I love you so much and hope you know everyone is thinking of you constantly. It never goes away and it still suddenly hits like it happened yesterday . Love you always Grace x x x x x

Anon (21st November 2010)
Dearest Grace, however busy life is you are so much in our thoughts. As Christmas approaches all those who love you so much will be thinking of you so much. An old Elvis song rings in my head. Images of India flash to your butterflies. Much love, S xx

Momma (19th November 2010)
Today I have planted masses of lilies. Always remembering how you loved them. I hope our garden will smell wonderful and look beautiful when they flower....and they are for you, Grace. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Stuart (16th November 2010)
Just a short thought and a few lines. We went to a funeral of a dear friend who had died full of years a couple of weeks after Ed's funeral. There was a poem in the service sheet. I feel it says so much about how we feel when death touches someone so young and takes them from our sight. As a friend of Ed's said to us - when we are gathered together they are with us as we each brings a little bit of them with us. The last verse was this: "And think of her as living In the hearts of those she touched For nothing loved is ever lost And she was loved so much" Sx

Momma (14th November 2010)
Grace I wish I could tell you what I am thinking about and talk to you; so many people miss you, I know they do, people tell me. It is impossible at the moment for me not to want to write so I am still doing it. I love you tons and tons and tons....but you know that, you always knew that. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Momma (9th November 2010)
Missing you sooooooo much......xxxxxxxx

Anon (6th November 2010)
Dearest Grace, just back from a first trip to India. It felt like you were with us on the journey and I imagine how it was for you growing up in Bangalore. Beautiful country, beautiful people so kind and giving. It's easy to see how you were so at home there. You are so missed and yet so with us. Much love, S xx

Momma (5th November 2010)
Darling Grace...........missing you and thinking of you all the time. I left some tiny daffodils for you at Teddies, they are bright and happy. Yesterday evening I went to listen to Jim, with William and Jasper, and he is plainly devastated and bewildered about you. His little girls are cute and he treasures them; I have always treasured you; I do feel how special you are..loving you always...Momma xxxxxxx

Anon (5th November 2010)
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Momma (31st October 2010)
Ros and Robert came and gave you some beautiful yellow roses yesterday. Your flowers are lovely and I always want to make it pretty for you. You never liked slugs very much and they do visit quite often! I will watch out for them. Nothing is easier about missing you, I love you and miss you as much as ever. It can't ever change, I know that. There is so much I want to tell you, talk to you about and laugh with you about. Loving you forever....Momma xxxxxxxxx

Ely (28th October 2010)
Mousie I thought of you SO much last week, in pretty much everything I did you popped into my head. the affect that you had and still have on people is amazing, i jsut hope you realise how adored you are and always will be. Miss you as always and constantly think of you and what you would be doing at uni, which nights you would be going to and how many essays youd get in on time - (dont worry im yet to pass a single piece of work!) love to you up there and to your brave family. xxxx 'I'll lend you for a little time, a child of mine he said. For you to love while she lives and mourne for when shes dead' I still love that poem and i am so glad i read it. It fits so well. love you xxxxx

Immy (27th October 2010)
Grace, i haven't written on the website wall in a while, doesn't mean that i never stop thinking about you, as you are always on my mind. It is so strange being up here in edinburgh, knowing that i can't just give you a call or message saying that i will come and see you or you should come up here. Lots of people know your story up here, and ask lots of questions, so hard to talk about you. Had a really funny moment the other was reminded about write the thyme tunes sing the thyme tunes, made me smile a lot. will never stop thinking about you. miss you every moment of everyday. i love you so much. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Anon (26th October 2010)
Hey Grace, just wanted to write and say hi. Thinking of you lots today. Miss you xx

Meg (26th October 2010)
Grace, Your Mother loves you so much, she is my oldest and dearest friend. I am so glad I met you when you were only six, I have the picture of you holding the bottle of Campari!

Chloe (26th October 2010)
hi gracie.. I've got a story for you involving my tray of pasta and tomato sauce being spilt on me in the dining room this evening, on my cream cardi and top and shoes - nightmare !! It reminded me so much of when you bought the white pumps from topshop and then we went to filth and they got dirty and you were so angry .... i am defintiely feeling the same way right now ! Been thinking about you so much today, miss you more than ever . x x x x x x x x x

Susan (25th October 2010)
Dear Grace, It is a while since I left you a message but there are only so many things a boring 54 year old can say, ha ha! I went to see Alice at university yesterday. She has only been away 3 weeks but it seems much longer. She is absolutely loving it & probably for more reasons than I am allowed to know about! I am quite sad this morning, thinking about you & your parents & how things should have been... Life is as it is & we must make the most of it, as I know you would. We miss you Grace every day but feel glad we have such wonderful memories. lots of love xxxx

Hannah (21st October 2010)
To Grace, Grace's Mommy and family, It is said (and I believe) that God takes the best ones down here on earth because they are too good to be on this earth, he needed another angel and thought that Grace, you would make a perfect one and I am sure you now are. I did not know you well but you were at the Dragon whilst I was there for a total of 2 years (although I was not in your year) From what I knew of you, you were popular, beautiful, kind, smiley, probably every lovely adjective that there is in the English dictionary. You seem to have been one of those girls that no-one could ever fault. I don't think I ever spoke to you, but isn't it amazing to think that even though I didn't I could still tell how lovely a girl you were. Even though it had been 6 years since I left the Dragon, and I didn't really know you, when I heard the news I remembered instantly who you were. To Grace's family: A poem I like and I thought you might like to read is: Do Not Stand At My Grave and Weep. By Mary Elizabeth Frye Do not stand at my grave and weep, I am not there, I do not sleep. I am in a thousand winds that blow, I am the softly falling snow. I am the gentle showers of rain, I am the fields of ripening grain. I am in the morning hush, I am in the graceful rush Of beautiful birds in circling flight, I am the starshine of the night. I am in the flowers that bloom, I am in a quiet room. I am in the birds that sing, I am in each lovely thing. Do not stand at my grave and cry, I am not there. I do not die. Grace, you are still living on in all our hearts and anyone that knew you personally or knew of you will never be able to forget what a beautiful, caring and kind girl you were. Reading these messages just shows how many lives you have touched and had an impact on. Lots of love to Grace, and of course your family who I am sure are just as perfect as Grace is.

Anon (20th October 2010)
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Momma (16th October 2010)
Even if I don't write, I never stop thinking.....it may be the same for others too. You are so missed Grace. Loving you forever...momma xxx (its Grandpa's birthday today...I hope you are with him x)

Olivia (12th October 2010)
Hi Grace, I am starting to settle now at Cambridge, you know I'm secretly loving being a nerd, except I don't have to pretend not to be anymore because everyone loves working here! I remembered running down to netball having passed my driving test, and you saying you couldn't imagine me failing at anything. I don't think you know how much that meant to me. It was the most honest and genuinely nice thing anyone has ever said to me, and whenever I face a new challenge I take those words with me. You made everyone feel capable, confident and special through the love and care you invested in others, especially friends and family, but anyone really. You had an extremely unique talent at making people feel wonderful by always reassuring people of their admirable qualities, and I hope you know that we all admired you dreadfully too, not just because of that but because of everything about your fantastic self. No matter how good you thoug ht I was at certain 'things' you were the best I know at being a great person. xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Vix (12th October 2010)
hello gracie, had jsut over a week at uni now, having such fun. i think about you so often. i have lots of photos of you in my room and theres the one from barca in a frame sitting on my desk so i can look at it whenever i am sitting there. oh i just miss you so much grace, there is still the biggest gap. i get sad that the whole gang aren't together anymore. i hope you are ok wherever you are. i really get it out how much i miss you grace X X X

Momma (12th October 2010)
Grace - I am so very proud of you..........I want you to know that and to know how much you mean to so, so many of us. You will be with us all forever...you would never have imagined all the wonderful things people say about you but I hope and pray you know now; you really do deserve to know....it will make you very happy. I love you so much xxxxxxxxxxx

Anon (11th October 2010)
love you always and always. thinking about you more than you could possibly know. you would be doing so amazingly now having settled in at uni, it is unbelievable to think how many friends you would have made and how loveable you always will be. missing you an incredible amount, always. it never changes xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Grace (7th October 2010)
I know I only wrote the other day..but I just wanted to tell you a story that happened last night. It was our first hockey social, which was really fun. Everyone was standing on the tables and chairs singing along to cheesey music and then the track changed to "drops of jupiter" and it hit me. we spent soo long writing those lyrics down at the back of the class as it was playing on my ipod. there are so many tiny things, like songs, that have the hugest impact on me..and its one of those things that always will. there will always be constant reminders of you, which at times are hard, but i love the fact that i have them..you'll always be around me. loving you always X x x x

Bella (5th October 2010)
Dear Grace and your family, I think about you all alot, and hope and pray that time may help you all with everything. Grace used to come round nearly every saturday at the Dragon when we were little, and I remember one of our conversations was about how she was a christian. Just wanted to remind you guys to take comfort in that, and that you will see her again, as she is at peace now in heaven! 1 Thessalonians 4:13-18. I also remember going to Gimbles and we were sure some guys were following us, so we ran back to South Parade, rang off the phone in on the Hoof and my dad cycled down on his bike and screamed at them! ha ha ha. For no reason aswell... we then figured they actually weren't stalking us! Will continue to pray for you guys. Tons of love, Xxxxxxxxx

Chloe (5th October 2010)
Hi Grace, I've been putting lots of photos up in my room and thinking about how beeeeautiful you are ! I want to chat to you SO badly!! I miss you everday , love you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Anon (5th October 2010)
Dearest Grace, all your friends are off to uni and you should be with them. You are in their hearts and their thoughts but it should be more. You are so much missed! But you are also still so much part of so many lives. Much love, S xx

Momma (5th October 2010)
Lovely Grace...I know you would want me to thank everyone who writes to you on this website because it gives so much comfort to all of us who read the messages... so now I am gratefully thanking them on your behalf. These messages, together with all the various others, are such an enormous testimony to you - acknowledging the way we all love you and miss you and know you are so very special. How lucky we all are to have known you, shared moments and laughed with you and, for us, to have you in our family - forever. xxxxxxx (poppa, momma, robert, becks, felix, jasper, william....a kiss from each)

anonymous (3rd October 2010)
Hey Grace, I am they same person just who wrote to you July 4th. So I have stared at teddies now, I like it, I see why so many nice people like your self go there. I saw the picture you had drawn on the ground floor entrance to the library, the picture of the grumpy man. I hadn't realised how amazing you were at art, mind you I don't know allot of things about you, but yet by reading all the messages below, I feel like I know you, like I know your family, the type of person you were, and how much everyone loved you and misses you, and this is shown by how people still message you regularly basically every day still wanting to see you, talk to you, be with you, ask your advice and whether your here or not you will always be someone's friend and a role model for someone. But tonight sleep well

Grace (1st October 2010)
hi G..ive been at uni for a week now and have been thinking of you so much. having a fun time but its quite strange not having the usual gang around..you'll have to keep a eye on us all - which i know would do anyway. i miss you everyday. love you so much. X x x

Momma (30th September 2010)
I too would do anything, anything, to be able to give you back to your friends and to have you with us. So much I want to tell you, do with you, explain; we are in Boston now and miss you dreadfully. You brought so much light and love into our lives. Always so much fun. I am never sure how we can manage without you. You are still very precious and always will be. xxxx

Anon (30th September 2010)
Its so awful knowing you can't reply to your friends on Facebook. They remember you and love you. xxxxxxx

Fran (29th September 2010)
Feels like everything is getting harder, would do anything to be around you again. love you now and always X

Ely (26th September 2010)
Mousie, we all miss you so much, so much more than anyone can explain really. have been up here for a week and so far so good. You would love it. I had hockey trials yesterday and got into a really fun team. My muscles are aching now alot and last night we did this huge pub crawl with the hockey society... uh ohh it was pretty intense. thought of you so much yeterday, you would have really love it and you would love everything about life up here. its not fair. i love you. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Momma (24th September 2010)
someone left lovely sunflowers on our doorstep, I wish I knew who, and Jap took them up to you. He found lovely pink roses and lilies there too. My heart is filled with such a warm feeling when I know people remember you and take all that trouble. I wish I could thank them. Alan says there was a bit of an adventure with the sheep getting into the churchyard but luckily they didn't chew up your flowers! I will come and see on Monday. Love you xxxxxx

Momma (23rd September 2010)
I managed to find a 'croissant pie' and remember how you loved it and did your funny dance and song about it...... I know how much you loved the french food.........missing you SO much. xxxx

Momma (19th September 2010)
Its amazing to think of all your friends going to university and everyone does miss you. It is wonderful they write to you and so many come to see you. We are missing you here in France. The pool is perfect, you would be the first in and the last out, you would love playing volley ball and moan if the boys and Becks stopped, you would never complain it is cold (I do sometimes until I am properly in and really swimming!)... I have realised I have not swum since swimming with you. You are the best swimmer I have ever swum with and I was always bursting with pride. Just to see you doing the IM...butterfly, breastsroke, backstoke and crawl...you are equally good at all of them and that is why the IM was your best race. All of us in the family are so so proud of you. And I am remembering all that now. Thank you for being so exceptional Grace. My Best Girl in the World. All my love to you. xxxxx

Chloe (17th September 2010)
hey grace. . went shopping today, bought some stuff which i would have been excited to show you. off to uni in a few weeks, pretty excited but a bit nervous. . loads of people are going in a few days. .anyway just filling you in , still miss and talk about you loads. wish you could be here love you x x x x

Momma (12th September 2010)
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx love you and missed you today at Ros's birthday party. It is hard packing for France without you. xxxxxxx

Momma (8th September 2010)
Grace, I think everyone will be missing you a lot this weekend...you should be with your friends having fun at the festival you so wanted to go to. I hope some of them have a look at your website once in a while because we have just exchanged your diet (we might put it back again for Lent!)for some special things we can all see and hear from time to time....and we will all be thinking of you and missing you. I miss you so much and I love you. xxxx

Momma (3rd September 2010)
missing you so much......always......xxxxxxx

Olivia (1st September 2010)
Hello Grace. What a fantastic website in your memory. It couldn't be bursting more with Grace if it tried, even down to it's extremely well organised lay out-you'd be more than satisfied! I keep coming on here and going through all these wonderful messages below, they are so beautifullly written, and I can't help but conclude that you must be the most loved person in the whole wide world! As most find, it's very hard to say exactly what one wants and all I can really think to say now is that I'm looking out of the window. We've just had that mid Summer rainfall that always comes before the beginning of September, and the grass is so green and the whole garden is fat with life, the sun is shining, and all of the colours of the flowers, and the smells and the sounds that come with this last bit of summer are just gorgeous. It's at times like this when I can only think of you. You are in every beautiful thing I see or smell or hear o r feel and your presence is always so strong in all of our happy moments. None of us will ever stop wanting you to be able to share them properly with us, but I take comfort in the fact that I'll always be able to find a bit of you in something lovely that surrounds me. You were just so overwhelmingly special. All my love, as always. xxx

Lara (31st August 2010)
hi Grace, i miss you so much, i was making a scap book about you and everything that has happened. after i get past the awful incident it is amazing to be able to think about you, just you. with out you being attached to the accident. just how i used to think about you. i was so fond of you Grace, you were always someone special to me, someone a little different to everyone else. and it seems you were the same to everything, ive come to the concluesion you are such a special girl and the world was lucky to have you for 17 years. i love you always

Anon (31st August 2010)
Grace, just back from hols where we all thought about you a lot. Your little 'sister' did so well in her GCSEs; you would be so proud and you deserve much of the credit. The lily we planted for you is blooming in your memory. Much love, S xx

Momma (30th August 2010)
Grace, just can't believe you are missing out on so much....even Facebook! Jap has had tons of birthday messages and you would have been having so much fun with all your friends. They remember you on Facebook but I know you would want to reply. We all love you and nothing seems to be getting easier. It is still almost impossible to believe you are not here with us. The reality hits me in awful waves. I need to see you again. There is a space that feels vacant and empty without you and needs to be filled by you.......that is how it is and always will be. I love you so much. xxxxxxxx

Vix (30th August 2010)
hey ho grace, the song 'follow me' came on my ipod today and i just had the biggest grin on my face remembering you completely taking the piss out of how i sang it. So so many things remind me of you. This summer would have been happier if you were around. I hate not having you to ask things about becasue you always had advice and you would say it in your serious tone! ha just remembered the banana on the bus, you know what im talkign about. miss you just too much smell man X X X

Momma (28th August 2010)
We have missed you so so much. You should have been here for Jasper's birthday. Robert even managed a mini treasure hunt! We had a lovely dinner and Becks and Felix were here. You would love Felix so much. He is absolutely gorgeous. We are going back to Wigan with Becks and Felix and to see Robert and their boat now. We miss you with everything we do. We all love you so much. We know we are truly blessed to have you in our family...xxxxx

Chloe (28th August 2010)
Hey Grace i was reading something the other day that said if you miss someone it means you are lucky because it means you had someone special in your life. I hate that I have to miss you, but I hope you know how much I do and just how special you always will be x x x x

Momma (23rd August 2010)
Grace - your friends are wonderful...and it is wonderful to read their messages - always written with so much deep feeling and love. I wish we didn't all have to suffer this way. It is tragic that you can't be with them having all the fun you deserve. I think about it most of the time and about you constantly. You said you might want to go to Leeds too (I remember the weekend you spent there when you lost your black coat, you were so worried about it; if only I could have said how little it matters). It is really hard to believe you are not here. Love you forever and ever, darling girl. xxxxx

Grace (23rd August 2010)
Last night you were in my dream - from what I remember of them, it was the first time in a while. For some reason, a bunch of us from school were having a relay race with some chocolate brownies, and you were getting really annoyed because people weren't doing it right and everyone kept cheating. It made me laugh because I can so picture you doing that..and then I woke up and the feeling of having you around faded and it was replaced with a frustrating, painful ache because i'll never have that. And I sat there on my bed for a while just wishing that somehow I could. I miss you so much grace - I wish you could be around so we can have brownie races and do everything that we should have done, this year and in all those to come. I know I'm not alone in this feeling - you're always in our hearts and thoughts. Love you millions..X x x

Momma (22nd August 2010)
missing you more and more and more if that is possible. xxxxx

Ali (22nd August 2010)
Gracie, i only really just found that this site was fully up and running!! until now i hope you have been loving my facebook messages....with so much fun and summer feeling flying round at the moment it hurts so much more that your not here to make it even better. Its probably because of missing you so much that without fail whenever im with a group of our mates we end up talking about you! its nice now that the immediate grief is easier to bear and most of the conversations are happy memories. Neither the memories nor happiness that comes with them will ever run out for all of us. I miss you too much XXXXXXX

Ely (21st August 2010)
Mousie, reading all these comments over and over just makes me miss you even more. reading other peoples memries spark my own. its so weird that uni is so soon. finally got into leeds- cant belive it and there is such a nice group of us going i just wish you were part of it. you so should be. we all miss you constantly. in so many ways, most of which are hard to explain but it feels like everything can be linked to you. i hope you know how adored you are. would do anything for just one more chat, hug, laugh, night out, hockey match, bus ride, london trip- so many things. love you. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Momma (19th August 2010)
I have just come back from Stratford and went into H&M just as we used to. I have been finding it difficult to go in but I have to go somewhere and I might as well go to one of your favourite shops. Shopping reminds me of you - especially shopping for clothes or food - and especially Top Shop! I can see you looking through the rails and then trying things on to show me. I always wanted to buy everything you chose because they all looked brilliant on you...it must be your special flair.... I miss you so so much and force myself to shop now when I simply have to... I need you to advise me. You know what looks good and what is best. It is horribly lonely without you Grace. xxx

Momma (14th August 2010)
Grace I am thinking hard about the plants to grow under your cherry tree at Teddies. So far we have put lots of fragrant pinks and now I am choosing some lilies and some pretty blue campanulas I think. I just want it to look (and smell) lovely all the time for you and everyone who sits on the bench thinking about you or just happily chatting. You would like that.xxxx

Anon (12th August 2010)
Never stop thinking about you. I hope your mummy knows we are all thinking about you, day after day, and most of all night after night. I know you know that. Love you. P.s I just laughed so much in toy story, I know you would have too xxxxx

Anon (11th August 2010)
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Momma (11th August 2010)
No one has written for a while...please know I love you more than ever. It will just never ever get any less.......I think I should stop writing on this website but then suddenly I really have to and want to..maybe because it makes me feel closer to you....lots of people say they just can't write but many people do think of you and some will never stop. I will never stop xxxxxxxx

Momma (7th August 2010)
Grace, Rhuari is competing in the triathlon tomorrow with you in his mind I know......it will be a huge challenge and one you would have done yourself some time I am certain. You will be spurring him on I know........I have just found a whole stack of photos which make it abundantly clear just how much fun you are...and how beautiful. Miss you terribly.xxxxx

Momma (2nd August 2010)
Grace, reading the last two messages below makes me feel so comforted but also very sad. Comforted to know that others feel the way I do and also to know that you are so loved. Sad because the messages below express so much of the way I feel too....how we can all manage without you, I just don't know. I am in Hastings, by the sea, missing you and thinking how you adored the sea and all the fun we always had with you. Unbelievably special fun, especially with the boys. I can never look at the sea, or even a swimming pool, without thinking of you….. We are all unique but somehow you are so particularly special........and so are your friends....it is a wonderful thing to be able to read messages to you knowing we are all sharing our overwhelming loss. xxxxx

Anon (1st August 2010)
Beautiful, kind, loving Grace, reading through these messages from everyone that loved you just makes it so unbelievably hard to think that you're not here. Everybody misses you so so much, I cannot even begin to imagine how difficult it must be for your family, I think of you and them all of the time. People keep saying over and over again that words can not possibly express what we so want and need to say. I have been thinking and speaking about you so much recently and it is unbelievably comforting. We speak and laugh about all of our memories of you, they are so vivid and I remember new ones all of the time. The other day I remembered how we were all dancing, singing, shouting and playing horrendously cringe music on the balcony at school when a certain teacher came and screamed at us for being too loud, you were so outraged and were determined to go and tell a senior member of staff exactly how you felt! I can just see you storming down the stairs now and telling us all exactly what you were going to do about it, making us all laugh hysterically! Memories like that just make it impossible to think that you are not here with us now, it is so unfair that you can't be here enjoying all of the amazing things that are going on right now. We all miss you and love you so so so so much, we will never, ever forget you beautiful Grace xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Anon (28th July 2010)
Gracie, It gets harder to look at things like this and your facebook now because with time things just don't get easier and that's so hard to understand, but then I guess it isn't at all. I really hope you know how much everyone still thinks of you constantly. It is unreal how difficult this still is. I love you so so much and every time I see your face in my head it's smiling that beautiful smile of yours. Unforgettable. Missing you so much, every day. You are always there, and I hope you always will be. I hope your family know how much everyone still loves you, misses you and thinks about you. So much love.. X

Momma (27th July 2010)
missing you too much and I want to tell you how much I love you xxxxx

Anon (24th July 2010)
when I remember how much you contacted people constantly I just want you to know everyone still loves you..x

Momma (22nd July 2010)
Thinking of you more than ever.......Loving you so much.. it is the middle of the night and I can't do anything else right now....xxxxx

Momma (20th July 2010)
I think of you all the time, we were camping with Big Robert and last time you were there and all the same things are there but you are not. It's no good me saying over and over again how much I miss you. It just isn't enough but I have no idea what else to do right now. Loving you my precious girl.....xxxxxx

Chloe (19th July 2010)
Grace, I wish I could tell you how much I miss you. Sometimes when I read all the messages below it makes me sad and sometimes it comforts me to know other people are sitting and thinking the same things as me. Today it's making me sad and I wish so much that you weren't gone, I still dont know how to say what I want but I'm always, always thinking about you and trying to tell you somehow, love you xxxxxxxx

Anon (19th July 2010)
Grace, i used to walk past your lovely little area in the quad every day and when the sun caught the flowers i always felt some of your beauty there as if it was you smiling in the sunlight, it would make me feel glowing with your warmth and love. you have taught me to take everything as it comes and give everything and one a go. everything's changing and everyone's moving forward in their lives but your coming with us because you'll be in our hearts forever x

Momma (16th July 2010)
Grace, I just have to write tonight to say we heard Macy Gray's 'I try' on the radio and of course all I can think of is you...(and soon it will be on the website so everyone can hear it) and then tonight I listened to a great programme of 50's music and Connie Francis sang and remember how you loved her and had her cds in your room? So much constantly reminds me of you and I never stop remembering and loving you. xxxx xxx xxx

Momma (14th July 2010)
I have just been up with you in the churchyard; Vicky has left such beautiful yellow roses and a card with a picture of my favourite tulip. I planted lots under your cherry tree. You are so missed - I can see that from all these wonderful messages. We must, must be going to see you again. Rhod and Janet are coming on Monday and have asked for another of your butterfly prints...that is their third! How proud I am of you. I write so I feel closer to you...there is little else I can do. I seem to love you more and more..... xxxxx

Ely (13th July 2010)
Mousie, today it hit me all over again. i miss you SO much. nearly everyone is back from there travels and this is such an exciting time for us with the summer and uni looming, its so unfair that you cant be here. things would be complete if you were. love you as always xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Will Mitchell (13th July 2010)
was thinking about you today, and remembering planning what we were going to do on the wednesday with marina, and however sad i am that never happened, i am so happy to have known such a lovely girl whom even no i had only met you a few times, you treated me like a friend you had know for years! a quality found in only the most loving people. i will always remember you!! If thoughts could make a pathway, and memories a lane I'd walk right up to heaven, and bring you home again! love you always!

Momma (12th July 2010)
Thinking of you all the time, I just can't sleep at all...I have written so much to you just now to try to tell you, it is all so impossible to understand; somehow I feel writing to you keeps you nearer and less lonely. I will never stop loving you and that gaping space can never be filled. I love you all equally but a quarter of the circle is missing and always will be. I know that. You are our most special girl...it is so impossibly hard to think you are not coming back. xxxxxxxx

Momma (8th July 2010)
These messages say so much about you Grace. I told you you are my BGiTW....you definitely are. Always. love you tons and tons. xxxxxxx

Anon (8th July 2010)
Oh Gracie, wonderful messages and thoughts. Always thinking of your beautiful smile and how you lit up our lives and still do. Much love, S xx

Anon (7th July 2010)
Gracie, tears are still falling, even a year on, and even when i am so far from home, england, oxford. you would think that leaving would maybe at least stop me from thinking of you each and every day but it doesnt. I love that I think about you so much, you are everywhere its incredible. How I Love you so. Big Kiss xxx

Momma (5th July 2010)
Also, I know that many of your lovely friends still write to you most days on Facebook (you HATED the idea I might join!); I love it that people remember you every day, it is absolutely impossible to say how much it means...but it is also impossible to take in that you just can't be in the photos that are always there...to think there can be no more photos...it is just impossible and awful and sad and miserable. But we will treasure the ones we have. I love you and wish I could tell you how beautiful you are. Well, I am telling you now anyway.........xxxxxxx

Momma (5th July 2010)
Grace how proud I am of you....how wonderful it is that you can reach people who have never met you and who still want to express their thoughts and feelings about you. For instance, the letter before is beautiful and I am just so glad it has been written and I want to say thank you as I know you would.... It is hard to imagine the impact you have had all around the world. And thank you for being YOU....I want to say thank you to all the people who write to you - it is hugely comforting to me and shows how much they think of you and love you. Maybe we will all meet one day and have a really good time together! We must live in hope. There are some very special people in this world and a lot of them are your friends. Tons of love as ever.xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

anonymous (4th July 2010)
hey Grace, Erm. . . You don't know me, and I don't really know you I had only heard of you before the accident. I am just a 13 year old guy going to St. Edwards in September, but I have been reading the messages on this site that have been sent to you by friends and family, and it shows how many people really loved you and cared. . . and how although you and not in the present with us you will always be in our thoughts and minds, it is amazing how although you are in a better place, you are still such a crucial part of your families daily life, I have been meaning to do this for a while but struggled to find the words, but just rest assure that although you have passed on your spirit lives on longer than anyone of us could imagine. You are one of the most loved people I know and I hope you know that wherever you are Grace but for tonight sleep tight knowing that your loved.

Momma (3rd July 2010)
Today I have thought about you all the time remembering you in different places in the house and doing different things. It feels as though you are here - at least as though you will walk in any minute. And I want to tell you all of this and about all the things I know you have missed and should be doing with all the people you love. I want to make everything right for you and for us...if only I could. But I know I will never stop loving you. xxxxxx

Momma (2nd July 2010)
Thinking of you ............but I can't write it all. I miss you too much all the time. I am remembering so many things and realising again and again how precious and special you are. xxxxxxxxx

Momma (30th June 2010)
again....I love you Grace. xxxxxxxxxx

Momma (27th June 2010)
It is Robert's birthday today and we went and spent such a lovely day on their boat with him, Becks and Felix and we missed you all the time. I thought of you whenever Robert and Jap were playing with a game and knew you would have loved it too. It was brilliantly sunny and we had a barbq on the bank and you were there. We were all thinking of you. Precious girl. xxxxxx

Momma (26th June 2010)
Grace - you would so love to have seen Narayan again. It should have happened. We will give something from you to BAC as I have been wanting to for so long. Those are some of the happiest days to remember, together with so many more in Bangalore. Every time I smell the lilies here now, I think of you even more. I am collecting masses of scented plants for the garden for you. Missing you forever. xxxxx

Pradeep Kumar, Head Coach, BAC, Bangalore (24th June 2010)
Grace, We came to know it too late. But, All of us in BAC is a rude shock. When we came to know this all the Coaches looked at each others and couldn't speak for few minutes. You were one of the nicest pupil's our centre had and god is so cruel the good people are called very early by the god to serve him and not rotten in the earth. But the loss is so big all of as but it is unbearable for your parents. God, give them the strength to withstand this. Praying god for your soul to rest in peace

Momma (23rd June 2010)
Grace, I have been to see your tree and bench and I want to plant some pinks under your tree if I can...so they smell wonderful. All the time I think of you. I am up in the middle of the night (3.20am) now just thinking of you....and remembering so much and missing you so much. It will never stop. I can't leave it too long before writing again...it is impossible. I need to be near to you. I love you...xxxxxx

Momma (18th June 2010)
Grace - i know how you are missed...over and over again I know. Even I look at Facebook once in a while...I won't belong as I know you would think it absolutely daft if I did! I like the website and feel close to you here. There is always so much I want to write. It is hard to express how I really feel. So many people feel the same way I think. It is sad that you are not in the side chapel at school for the time being. I miss you everywhere. That will be forever. Good night my lovely girl. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Anon (18th June 2010)
Grace, I haven't yet written to you on this amazing website yet. I have just read all the messages below and although I didn't need reminding what a beautiful, kind person you are, it was so nice to read everyone's memories and doing so makes me smile because all the little things are so gracey! You are always in my thoughts and i will never forget your gorgeous smile and last hug i got from you. So beautiful Grace x x x

Momma (17th June 2010)
Thinking of you as ever....it is constant. Love you loads. xxxx

Momma (15th June 2010)
I have just thought....don't worry, I think of the boys all the time too! They think of you and we laugh and talk about you so so much. Just now I remembered how you always played handball with Jap (or that game he made up to play with you but finally tried to retire from because you always beat him!) between the front door and the stairs...I can just see you laughing so much. And all the fun. And then how you said to me, in exactly the same place, how you couldn't believe I cleaned up so much each night after the builders had gone and how much you loved it. Oh Grace, you are so much here with us but I only need to see you. I find myself just thinking you WILL come back and then remembering you can't. Rushing now as I always do but never stop thinking about you. xxx

Momma (14th June 2010)
Grace - I sent you loads of kisses...but sometimes there is a fault with the website so they never showed up....l love you so much I can't even begin to say how lonely I am without you. I want to write every day but it is only to help me make sure you know how much i love and miss you tho I really do know it is mostly only for me. I am always bursting to say so much and I just need to tell you......I am still thinking of you almost every second of the day. Everything I do, see, hear, eat, think of etc etc etc, has some relevance to you and you are just constantly in my head and thoughts. I think of you immediately when I get in the car. I look up at your bedroom windows overlooking the drive and want to see you waving. It is mind blowing sometimes.You are very precious and always will be. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Momma (9th June 2010)
I am writing again because it makes me feel closer to you...and I just have to. Today the blinds in your room have been fitted. You chose them and they are the best in the house. I need you to do all the things you wanted to choose in the house. We are at a standstill without you...I certainly am. It is so hard going into your room, knowing how much you love to arrange it and how brilliant it would look with your touch. It is the saddest thing knowing it will never be the way you wanted it. Every time I went to your rooms at school I loved the way you arranged them...I told you when I could but not enough; I left you notes sometimes. I remember it all so clearly. I miss you terribly Grace. and I love you loads and loads. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Momma (7th June 2010)
Beautiful Grace......so many people have asked after you for your birthday...your godparents who all miss you so much, your friends, their parents, so so many. We all miss you so very much. I will go again tomorrow and check all the lovely flowers and take you some more of the lovely stocks which smell wonderful and you would really love. Missing you just as usual....I couldn't miss you more. Loads of love, I love you and still can't really believe you are not just about to come into the room.......I would always say to you 'keep safe' and I know how much you tried...my beautiful bgitw..xxxxxx

Marina G (5th June 2010)
GRRRRRACE. I am bak home now!!!!!!! Going away again at the end of the month so I shall see you Mummy very soon. I have just been on a flight for like 24 hours man I am tired. I hope you had a good birthday I know you would have boogied all night long love you

Momma (3rd June 2010)
Just an hour before your birthday is over Grace...it has been such a beautiful day which somehow made us miss you even more if that ever could be. We missed you so much punting and eating, and drinking and laughing. Poppa and Felix both managed to be in the punt - I did think you might have been nervous if you had been there so you were spared that at least! But if you were there we would have played rounders as usual and had a picnic on the bank. We had it in the punt as we were too scared to get Poppa and Felix out and in again! We have given you lovely flowers and cards and we think of you constantly. We love you so much. I find it so hard to think of your birthdays - your 19th today and all of the ones to come. Why aren't you here when you loved life so much and loved so many people and so many loved you? I will never understand until I get there myself. In the meantime, I have to write to you as I still need to because I can't just stop. Grace P said it today, it is impossible to write what one wants to..............it really is. I feel like bursting with love for you......xxxxxxxx

Susan (3rd June 2010)
Dear Grace Almost didn't get your birthday wishes to you in time! I have been reading all the wonderful messages to you..you are so loved and missed more than words can express. Thinking of you every day. Love from Susan xxxx

Sophie (4th June 2010)
Grace, what a beautiful website you have here. It reminds me of how beautiful you were as a person. So many people wished you Happy Birthday on facebook, it seems so unreal but it shows how many people are still thinking of you and missing you as much as I am. Words cannot describe how much you deserve to be here today. love you Grace.

Anon (3rd June 2010)

It's a beautiful day and you should be here in person. You are very much in heart and mind. Much love, S x

Ely (3rd June 2010)
Mousie Moo. i cant belive that you are not here for your birthday, i feel like it has really crept up on me and i hadnt thought about it until yesterday when it hit me hard. i feel like i spent all night last night just wishing that you were here. in so many ways it does seem real. i hope that wherever you are you have the best birthday. the sun is out and its a beautiful day, we should be punting. thinking of you especially and your lovely family too. i miss you always and need you so much. love you xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Momma (3rd June 2010)
Happy Birthday my Birthday Girl.....the weather is just exactly how you would love it for punting...we are going and will be remembering all the wonderful punting birthdays you have had.....such amazingly happy times. But no rounders today...we haven't got good enough teams! Might try the cherry stone spitting if we can manage....we will be sure to be happy for you my BGitW. Missing you too much. loving you forever.xxxx

Grace (3rd June 2010)
Happy brithday G! i wrote you a little messgae on facebook but decided that i wanted to write here aswell..I'm supposedly "working" in london at the moment, its a bit rubbish being back at work. at times I just make myself look busy, so that people don't think I'm slacking..the efforts that i go to to pull that off would make you laugh. but today its SO sunny - such a beatiful - and I literally have avoided doing anything all morning. Spent most of it daydreaming.. i've deleted what i've started to write about 10 times now. more than a year has gone and i still find it so hard to express what i feel. I think i'm just going to have to accpet that words will never do it justice - I don't really think anything will, apart from the fact that one day i will see you again. thinking about how youre not here makes me so frustrated and sad..i just end up wishing that you could be back so that you can share with us all that you were meant to. im actually finding what i want to say too hard to write grace. what i want to say doesn't really make sense so I'll just leave you with what i know: you are always in my thoughts. i miss you too much. i'll love you forever. X x x ps.have a lovely day :)

Lydia and Rachel (3rd June 2010)
Gracie, happy Birthday Georgeous girl! We are currently in Koh tao and it has been a gorgeous day on the beach wishing that you were here, We never stop thinking of you! all our love to you and your family x x x x x

Chloe (3rd June 2010)
Hi beautiful girl, It has been such a gorgeous day today - you must be being good wherever you are!! I wish more than anything I could have shared today with you , and every other day too. I still have that feeling where I want to promise someone that I'll do anything to have you back and that this shouldn't have happened. I just miss you more than you will ever know. Happy Birthday Grace, Love you always x x xxx

Alex (3rd June 2010)
Dearest Grace ~ it just so happens that, today of all days, I came across the fuschia cardigan with fluffy collar and cuffs. It was one you handed on to Eloise ... and she adored wearing it. But the image in my mind was of you wearing it ... you looked so pretty and charming ... when you came to keep Lydia company at Eloise's party. You were wonderful ... inventing party games and musical capers, leading the birthday singing, creating such colourful and imaginative face painting, and catalysing so much fun and laughter. We feel so blessed to have shared such happy memories. xXx

Momma (2nd June 2010)
Grace, I need to tell you how much I am thinking of you and remembering how you loved it when I did up lots of tiny parcels and put them all in one big box for you - you just absolutely loved it.....and I just loved doing it for you. Today I saw exactly the things I would love to buy for you. I couldn't resist one of them so it is your present. It is for your room and you will love it I know. All your friends will laugh and love it. You MUST be with us...I know you must be...and tomorrow is your day. We will go punting as usual. Love you so so so so so so so much. xxx

Anon (31st May 2010)
Dear, dear Grace, how long I wonder does a wish or a prayer take to reach you in heaven? With many, many others I am sending extra bithday wishes between now and Thursday.You are so much missed and so fondly remembered. Love always, S x

Momma (31st May 2010)
Thinking of you - and so much wishing I was shopping for your birthday. I want you to be 19 as you should be. You were already growing up so much and I had not really realised. I love you so so much Grace. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Momma (29th May 2010)
Darling Grace - today is my birthday and you would have made me a card and made a lovely fuss of me......I remember many many past birthdays and thank you for all the thoughtful and generous presents you gave me. It seems to me that what you liked best in life was giving presents. Robert, Becks, Felix and William are all here and Jasper was with me this morning too. Poppa is always here. We, and so many others, all miss you endlessly. I don't know how to express how much I love you............xxxxxx

Zigi (29th May 2010)
Dearest Grace - This message is for you on your birthday - it's a little early I know but I may not be able to write to you on the day. It's just to say I shall be thinking of you, such beautiful little star, and I'm sure this speaks for so many of us who miss you. What moves through us is a silence, a quiet sadness, a longing for one more day, one more word, one more touch. we may not understand why you left this earth so soon,or why you left before we were ready to say good-bye, but little by little, we begin to remember not just that you died, but that you lived. And that your life gave us memories too beautiful to forget. lots of love Zigi xxxxxxxx

Momma (27th May 2010)
I have just had the most delicious peach, Grace...and I can only think of you....the smell is so yummy and you would have grabbed it straight away and revelled in the flavour you loved so much. It seems that absolutely everything is reminding me of you all the time and unbelievably vivid memories of you pelt me non-stop....it is hard to bear especially as I still cannot believe you really are not coming home. It is so completely impossible to take in. I love you my darling girl. xxxxxxx

Chloe (26th May 2010)
Grace, I have just been reading all the beautiful messages written below, I'm sorry that I can never seem to put into such eloquent words just how much I wish you were here and how much it hurts that you're not. . I think about you so much and as lots of others have said, always when I experience or see something extraordinary, which takes my breath away. I have been laughing tonight about you falling down the stairs at the bridge and telling us off for laughing and then saying that we must be embarassed of you - I hope you know that it just made us love you even more for being such a goon! I know I will never stop missing you and I will never not have that suffocating feeling when I think about you not being here. . but I know that more and more I think about times with you to make me happy, not sad and that memories with you will never stop making me laugh or smile . . missing you always, Chlo x x xxxxx

Momma (23rd May 2010)
Grace, I wish you were right here...so I could be sure you were never lonely...you never could be lonely when you were here - not a chance, knowing all the people who love you - but I feel desperate to be close to you now... to hug you. Writing like this does help me to feel closer to you somehow and that is what I need so maybe now I will write to you every day ... xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Lydia and Rachel Duncalfe (23rd May 2010)
Grace! We are in Thailand, it's so amazing we wish you were here! We met Lara and fran tubing in Laos, we had many happy times sharing memories of you :) and your dimples! We were in Kho Phi Phi on the beach - we know how you're a beach bum and it reminded us of the time you came to Granny town with us where we filmed "the mermaids of Charmouth" good times :) We never stop thinking of you, Promise to write again soon. missing you so much, Lyd and Rach x o x o x o x o x o x

Momma (22nd May 2010)
Today is such a beautiful day. I got up so early and tried to feel more positive...but the news came on and there has been a plane crash in Mangalore. Instantly I remembered how we all went to Mangalore when you were in the Bangalore swimming team. You swam butterfly stroke in a 50 metre pool, aged about 6 or 7, representing Karnatica State...how many small English girls have done that?? I was SO proud of you and all these wonderful experiences you had in India were waiting to come alive again for you in your gap year when you were to visit Bangalore and renew all your old memories, seeing the people and places you knew and really loved so much. For you to miss such a unique, fulfilling, enriching and FUN time is cruel and miserable and I think about it so often but there is nothing I can do to make it better. My comfort is that you made the best of everything every day and would be telling me you were happy. You told me so of ten and I thank you all the time for your thoughtfulness. I will love you forever; the intensity can never fade xxxxxxxxxxx

Momma (21st May 2010)
I miss you so much it is impossible...everywhere I go, everything I see has something to do with you. I want to talk to you, text you, write all the time and tell you everything. I want you to see all the things you love and just laugh and for you to be with us. I want you to see the carpets you chose..and your blinds. I want to know that recipe with rocket and mushrooms you made up and said I would love, and those chocolate truffles you were going to make and said they were the best ever. Whenever I go to Daylesford I think how you should have been working there before your gap year. And how hard you were working for your exams and how much you were absolutely loving your art. My head is bursting with all my treasured memories of you but I just want YOU. It is absolutely impossible that you have gone....I want you to be here for your birthday..and Christmas........and every day....xxxx xxxxxxxxxxxx

Lucy (18th May 2010)
Miss you Grace, You'd love Felix, he is beautiful and Bex and Rob are looking after him well. Will have all the memories in my mind forever (especially Rob and Bex's wedding) haha. Wish you could have got the chance to come to flamingo land with us. love you lots xxx

Momma (16th May 2010)
Thinking of you precious girl.......how would I ever not be? Felix was here and I am so sad just thinking about what bliss it would be for you to be with him . Robert left some beautiful flowers for you at the churchyard ......xxxxxxxx

Anon (14th May 2010)
Beautiful, amazing Grace; always in our thoughts and always in our hearts. Sx

Momma (13th May 2010)
Grace - it is just simply getting harder and harder to be without you...not easier. It does seem to be impossible to bear. I can't say much but I feel so intensely. I want to scream how much I love you....anyway, you have always known how much. xxxxxxxxxx

Anon (11th May 2010)
Miss you. simple as that. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Momma (10th May 2010)
I miss your goodnight text messages each night...so badly...I always will. Neither of us ever knew when to stop texting..it was fun and funny. I want you to read my messages to you so I can say night night and I love you as I always have done. I am sending hugs and kisses especially for you, my precious girl..I love you xxxxxxxxoooooooooxxxxxxxxx

Anon (9th May 2010)
I'm sure Lucy is right; Grace is everywhere. With all her family and friends all the time. A perfect memory, an inspiration, a reason to smile and always a perfect companion. S x

Momma (9th May 2010)
So many people asked me about you today Grace...I am so proud of you. I love you tons and tons and you have always known that. xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Lucy (8th May 2010)
Whilst in India, for me at least, rather than thinking 'this is what Grace could have done' while I'm here, it's more in sync with my beliefs that she's all over the world right now. Wherever her friends are she's never far from their thoughtss. She was made truly, irritatingly perfect with an infectious spirit and she'll never be forgotten. Whenever we see something incredible, I always think of her and i don't think that will ever go away.

Momma (6th May 2010)
Beautiful Grace...I am thinking about you all the time as I am trying to make the garden right. If only you were there, looking out of the window of your new room (which is what I always imagined) so we could have a chat as I was doing things in the garden. You were going to help to choose the plants outside your room. No wonder I never stop missing you....those words from Tennyson say it all 'my love involves the love before, my love is vaster passion now.....' - it will always be like that. xxx

e (3rd May 2010)
Mousie its not really getting easier at all. wish you were here so very much. coming to see you on friday. love you as always xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

K (3rd May 2010)
Dear sweet Grace, I did not know you well, however there isn't a single day that passes without you coming into my thoughts. I just wanted to write and say thank you, for you have made me see life in a different way. I try to enjoy each day that I have on this earth, try not to take a single second for granted and be happy. You always seemed so happy. Thank you. You really are an angel. For all those that miss you dearly, remember what is so true. Grace is still with us, in the flowers around us, in the air we breathe, in the rays of sunshine that shine down on us, and in the droplets of rain that fall. Love xx

Momma (3rd May 2010)
Grace - every day your friends tell me how much they think about you and that means so much to me. You are really loved. I am so proud of you. Every thing seems unreal still...I can't get used to it. I don't know how I ever will. There is so much I want to say to you and wish I had. How could we know there would be no chance? But you know I love you more than words can say. xxxx

Great Aunt Ann (2nd May 2010)
Dear Grace, That looks so funny - I have never thought of myself as a Great Aunt - or hardly as an Aunt to your mother! All three generations just call me "Ann" and that;s the way I like it - even though I will be ninety on my next birthday! But I just wanted to let you know that my memory is ok (except when I lose my car keys, specs, etc. etc.) and I can remember vividly your lovely smile and personality and wish, like SO many other people, that you were still with us. But your family and friends were so lucky to have known you and you brought such sunshine in to their houses. I have your butterfly print in my house - so I will never forget you - until the time that I forget everything - I so wish you had been able to visit us in America. With much love,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,Ann

Anon (1st May 2010)
Amazing beautiful Grace, I thought of you all night (it really seemed like that). Could not sleep for thinking about you. It is still impossible to contemplate that you are not here with us. It hurts. We love you so very much. xx

Momma (1st May 2010)
Goodnight darling Grace....I have thought of you constantly all day..we went to the Playhouse tonight and I remembered how hysterical you got laughing at my stupid remark about the man with the head...we both laughed till we cried......I can't even say how sad I feel now but I do love to remember when I can bear it....mostly all I know is I love you forever and ever. xxx

Anon (30th April 2010)
amazing grace x

Momma (30th April 2010)
missing you never endingly and always loving you, precious girl ...xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Anon (29th April 2010)
If tomorrow never comes Will she know how much I love her
How much we all loved her and always will. S x

Marina Gibson (29th April 2010)
Amazing Grace, I am so far away, but yet I think about you everyday, even being away from Upper Swell still makes me ponder off into my own little world and think of those times we had together. Its almost like I don't want to write anything because a lot of the time I just don't and can't believe I won't be able to have anymore times with you. I am in New Zealand at the moment and have been away from home since January! Long time ay.. I am coming back in June for 10 days so I am going to make sure I see your Mummy and give her a big hug. I love and treasure you.

Kate Edwards (29th April 2010)
Today the pink and cream Webber tulips which will always remind me of you are in full flower. They remeind me of you because the day you died they were in full flower and I picked a bunch for you and put them in the chapel. They are later this year as everything in my garden is later. Every year I will always add more of them to the boarder as tulips don't kick on year after year. This particular boarder in my garden is my "Grace" boarder. I guessed you loved peonies as well so have planted loads of them. They will start flowering after the tulips. I am off to collect Ely from the airport and so wish that you were arriving home as well from your gap year. I know all your friends think about you so often Grace and there is such sadness that you were not with them. You are in my thoughts so often. xxxxxxxxx

Momma (28th April 2010)
Oh Grace ... Jap could not have put my own feelings better. He has written beautifully my thoughts too. He is up so early - writing this - and I haven't seen him coming into the kitchen yet. You would love our kitchen now. Not that horrible kitchen you had to be in all your life here...(and cooked us those 4 delicious suppers the few nights before the Monday night..I kept saying 'just wait till we have the new kitchen, you will love it so much)....but this one which you have never cooked in or eaten in or lived in. You planned so much. It is green as you wanted. I hope you can see it. Your Print hangs in it and I see you, as the escaping butterfly, all the time. But it makes me cry. I miss you in everything I think about or do. I think we all do. I have such very special forever memories of you but sometimes I try to close them out as they hurt so much. Really I want to be strong and remember you all the time as I need you s o much....and I love you. xxxxx

Jap (28th April 2010)
I caught myself daydreaming this morning of what it would be like if I walked into the sitting room and there you were. Or that noise coming from upstairs was you walking about. Or if your door was closed just because you hadn't got up yet. I tried not to wake from the dream. I wanted to believe in it and open the door and see you there asleep as if everything was normal, the way it should be. I closed my eyes - you appearing out of nowhere doesn't seem any stranger than you not being here where you belong. I tried to imagine seeing you, but my mind was too weak. Someday I know I'll see you again, in a reality more real than the present, and I know that the happiness of that moment will make up for all this sadness.

Marella (28th April 2010)
One day I sat upon a ship,it was close by to shore; I walked along its loansome deck, my heart so helpless, sore. 'What if', I thought , 'I brave could be and write a word or two, to tell her all she was to us but so much more, to You...

Neil & Pat Wright (27th April 2010)
Our memories of Grace are from the time when you all lived just down the street from us in Uppingham. We would see her coming to and from school, (as often as not pursued by her Granny several yards behind), always smiling, and talking to everyone she met. If there was no-one to talk to she talked to herself ! A long time ago but a happy memory.

Harry LLoyd (26th April 2010)
I just wrote a little poem to Grace. 'Help us'
These tumbling wheels of sands, Hold me in their hands.
Like tiny shells of foreign lands, I know no boundaries, know no limits.
Help me for I am weak, Beyond the mountains I must sleep,
For us, we only keep the tears of the broken.
You hide in disrepute, like a leper, as though your time is short and days are long...
But listen...be still, hear their song, you must be strong to fight these demons.
Be bold, be brave among us, be gentle be soft to save us.
For these tiny shells surround me, and I don’t think I’m turning back.

Anon (25th April 2010)
Grace, I have re-read and re-reread again ' A Child Loaned' which was truly written for you. We think of you every day; the memories are so fond but we miss you so much. All our love, S x

Momma (24th April 2010)
I'm so sorry Grace...the messages are not arriving for you because there has been a fault. (It is fixed now.) Zigi wrote a lovely one all about Boots and Jasper wrote and all sorts of people have written but I am sure, and hope so much, they will write again. Meanwhile, yesterday I spent some time at Teddies, in the chapel again, and seeing the beautiful blossom just coming out on your cherry tree. Your bench is lovely and it will be a happy place to sit - chat - laugh - think etc... Last night I had supper with John and Alex (Lydia has gone to Thailand, it hurts that you should be there too...) and we remembered so many happy times with you - especially the swimming times. None of us can or will stop thinking of you. My heart just aches for you; i love you so much forever...it is constant... xxxx

Zigi (24th April 2010)
Sweet Grace, not a day goes by when I do not think of you - you are surrounded by love and never forgotten - big hug xxxxx

Momma (20th April 2010)
Chloe has just turned up....she has brought some lovely flowers and we have so many memories of when you were small.......we remember you then and we will always remember you forever....I love you so much xxx

Lara (19th April 2010)
Grace, you havent slipped from anyones minds, although it has been a year, i still remember the last time i saw you so clearly, a memory so heart renching i try not to think about. how it was only a hello, not a hug or a real conversation. although i have so many memories with you i just want more... i wish i cherished every second with you. although most nights i dream your still here which is amazing, because your you, nothing is altered, so real but so distant. love you Grace, always and forever x

John, Alex, Rachel, Lydia & Eloise ~ as one (17th April 2010)
Dearest Grace, there isn't a day that goes by when we don't think of you. You are in our hearts, in our thoughts and in what we do. With such a loving family and so many dear friends I feel sure every minute of every day is filled with a thought of you ... and so you are with us, always xXx

Momma (12th April 2010)
Grace BGITW (I can't bear to give up our code...and I won't). It is hard to really understand how very many people miss you. So many came to our service for you and SO many prayed for you and thought of you all over the world and in the UK. So many texted and emailed me to tell me so. Your friends are definitely extra special. You were right to spend all the time you did with them. No one could know how much I miss you my lovely girl. xxxx

Anon (9th April 2010)
missing you always x x x x

Susan (9th April 2010)
Oh Grace, I clearly remember as though it was only yesterday the silly games we played in the car on the way to Tal-Y-Bont! Every time we arrived in a different county we changed our accents until I could stand it no more & would say "that's it , no more silly accents!" Another recollection was me coming back from a food shopping trip & you & Alice had prepared a meal, set up formal name places & dressed up! We laughed so much on those Taly-Y-Bont holidays.. Dearest Grace...

Bowen (7th April 2010)
Grace, Being all over the place separated from good old teddies regulations makes it so easy to think you're still around; just in a different country or continent ready to meet up in thailand at the full moon party with everyone else. i know you won't physically but you have no idea of how much you have stamped your mark on us all. We will never forget you. I just wish you'd read this and guffaw your embarrassed laugh. Do you remember me trying to copy your writing all the time because yours was so neat and pretty and mine was left handed rubbish? or at kais's 18th when we sat outside the portable loos for about an hour... we did that at alex's as well actually. or our drives in my car to parties where we always ended up driving alone together listening to magic (because i wouldn't have any other station) and rapping britney spears on a motorway with rude bois looking at us as if we were mad. very odd. i want to apologise for everything i should have done differently; if i ever hurt your feelings and i want to thank you for every memory you have given me which makes me smile. even on a day like today. you are a truly wonderful girl and my prayers are always of you. i miss you- just- incomprehensively. take care, Grace. I love you always. Lucy xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Ely (7th April 2010)
Mousie moo, we are all finding it so hard to grasp that it has been a year already. time goes too quickly. this year has been huge and it is so unfair that we could not enjoy it with you, i have thought of you constantly on my travels, there is so much to see that you would love. I wish more than anything you were here. love you always , X ps this website is amazing, you would be proud although maybe a little embarrassed with your diet plan!! i think its great though. miss you X

Jane Cruddas (7th April 2010)
Grace, What a wonderful celebration of your too brief life this is. So many memories of you in house, on tour in SA and on the netball courts have come flooding back. I said a prayer in New Zealand for your family and friends as I wasn't at Teddies today. A year has passed, many of your friends have flown the Teddies nest and you are still in all our thoughts. You will always be in my life - your art hung proudly on my wall, to remind me to seize life and always stand firm for what I believe in. Never forgetting you xxx

Momma (6th April 2010)
Beautiful Grace - Remembering our wonderful afternoon a year ago today....not a thing wrong with your teeth at the dentist and then we looked for mirrors for your room in that quaint little junk shop. Then ...we had more fun and I couldn't resist buying you the fabulous green shoes because you looked so amazing in them. They were perfect for you and we were both very happy. I am so lucky and so grateful we had that time together........I miss you beyond my thoughts, beyond anything I can say.....I love you forever.xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Cosmo (6th April 2010)
Grace I hope that you are still smiling down on all of us with the most beautiful smile i have ever know. i know that you haven't left anyone's thoughts this past year and you are being missed more and more with every passing day. You would be so proud with everything that is happening in your memory, hope all is good with you, loving and missing you hugely Cosmo xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Alice (6th April 2010)
We met in ledbury, when our mums met up after years of you living abroad. They talked so much about their houses and when the boys where little. You lost your purse, Bill was so grumpy but you could tell he was such a proud dad! We got on so well, especially when we started going to Wales! I still wear your hand me downs.... that pink jumper from Next still fits me! You blossomed beyond everyones imagination, always doing something amazing. Love you forever lovely ditzy Gracie x

Immy (5th April 2010)
grace, it is hardest thing sitting here and even trying to talk to you, i hate so much that it is the 7th of april so soon and you are not here with me to spend it with me on my birhtday, ever birthday you have surprised me with so much you mean more than anyone to me. i am missing you sooooooo much you will always mean the world to me, i hate that i have to write such a cringe message i cant believe it has nearly been a year, i will love you forver and always, wish you were here so much. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx